i know its kinda of late but i really want to post this christmas song lyrics haha
The Meaning of Christmas
the meaning of christmas is loving,
a heart without hating or striving
the meaning of christmas,
dispelling the darkness
the meaning of christmas is You

christmas tree and santa claus and jingle bells,
they are only incidental things.
God has given me his very best as you can tell
so what about the precious love He can bring?

the meaning of chrismas is loving
men's deep sorrow rejoicing
the meaning of christmas
dispelling the darkness
the meaning of Christmas is You!

i find this a really meaningful song with a catchy tune! :D
have been neglecting lots of things in life.
hard to strike a balance sometimes.
oh well what done cannot be undone so i should just continue working hard to strike a balance.

ohya i see the 政治黑暗now hahaha no point guessing what i'm referring to...

anw i really miss my friends whom i've not seen (nicole, pmz!,...)
hope to get to go out and crap/ catch up soon!
:)

HELLO :D
I know my blog's kinda of dead o.o
sigh... my busy schedule. <--- excuses
ANW, my life has been pretty fulfilling with no breaks haha. Since i have an interesting life, must share with you all. Kay s i go event by event ;)
First thing aft handing up GPF was imac clep training. Was quite shocked to see only 6 ppl in the class. i think cos its non-compulsory (and 2 of them went cos they were the chair+vice-chair of clep lol). It was reduced to only 4 ppl on the second day 0.o haha. Fri mon went to white sands to do imac proj with shuen! That girl was late larh ._. anw we couldn't really decide and photobooth was tempting so we did a bit and cam-whored on photobooth!
Sat was donation drive... kinda of wasted my day becuase it was really fruit-less. Although i will still get the hours (i think) but really didn't do much. It was some MusicSG project, where we will be collecting music scores, CDs, DVDs, programmes. The catch is that it must be written/ composed by Singaporeans and preferabbly from the 1940-80s. The scope is super duper narrow. I mean i'm not saying spore is lousy but the number of Singaporean composers who publishes albums is like really little. Hmm maybe the committe heading this project must re-consider on scope? I think that its a good initiative, but maybe need a wider scope...
Sunday was just spamming theory at home then church!
Mon- Fri : WEP at STA
First 2 days were quite bad because we were super bored and only picked up phonecalls (which made the retail ppl abit pissed) and paste stickers on brochures =.= Somemore 2nd day i was packing the cramped and dirty storeroon :(
Aft that was relatively better cos i got to learn how to use iBrains, Abacus, issue insurance and pack the Tour Manager (TM) file and print booklets and fold and staple hahahaha.
The people there all quite nice, but i think the boss a bit erm unpredictable ( like you don't know when she's joking...) other than that quite okay , haha i am like in the grp department with nice people like Krystle, Raymond and Rosy. They may look a bit fierce (except krystle) but they are really very nice. i think the only down side abt this wep is $10 a day. and Bugis food quite expensive :(
Sian i feel sian. I shall blog abt asian children festival nxt time!
Menawhile, jiayou everyone!

Yay. We handed up GPF :)
Official end of PW! I really would miss PW! Meeting on sat and spending abt 1 hour trying to find plugs. All these memories wil lbe part of me!
Still remember embarrassing times when the carl's junior plug was fake, making fun of the superdog manager cos he was using the plug.
Rembers fun times when we were crazy thinking of ideas when everyone went crazy. literally everyone in the group haha. the fun times when we used zhenzhou's and weijie's facebook account to post funny comments! Remeber the time when zhenzhou, weijie and I cried in subway becauseof onions. (but lineatte and mayping couldn't really feel it =.=). Remember that late night spent in school till 1130 for WR consultation. reached home at 1plus, was still on 12 at 12plus.
Remember the times we were all so restless and became crazy, talking abt weird stuff helping zz/wj mousehunt...
Remember the times when we can all recite lineatte's script, thinking of weird hand gestures, like put hands on top of head to form a heart shape and turn one round when say "The Everlasting Waltz of Life", stretch when saying "STRETCH", tying the not when saying "couples who are deciding the knot".
Will always remember the time i was so lag that i hit the table retardedly...
I will miss working with everyone of you. Although to be frank, i felt quite hopeless and helpless at that time when everyone finished GPP and we just changed topic :/ But now i think its worth it. We've come a long way and now The Everlasting Waltz of Life is really a good strategy and i think we were really creative.
It was really nice working with DH012 and i believe we will still remain as a bonded pw team with默契, i mean good rapport.
To our dearest group leader Zhen Zhou:
Must really thank you for organising all the meetings, for trying your best to accomodate everyone's schedule.I mean its v challenging and i think i've given you quite alot of trouble. Without complain, you plan for meetings and allocate/compile our work.
Although we always complain that you play too much mousehunt, perhaps your influence is kinda of great, Dh012 is palying mousehunt now! I think our grp have kinda of concluded that you opened up and became more crazy! Zhen Zhou, we really do appreciate you as our grp leader! :)
To our dearest designer+creative director May Ping:
Thank you soooo much for designing our products. I know you enjoy doing it, but it takes up much of you time too! Will remember the funny consultation we had with 吴老师on this Thur evening where she had to eat her dinner in school :/ Miss the times we were crazy together thinking of fun activities and strategies! Although we always do PW until midnight, we'll always be on msn tgt, trying to disturb (but actually trying to entertain each other). Without you, I bet i'll sleep lol. Thanks for providing laughter and injecting fun throughout our entire project! Thank you May Ping! :)
To our dearest group working file holder cum secretary cum treasurer Lineatte:
Thanka a million for helping us print and file stuff, and always trying to pull us away from distraction. We really appreciate you for finding many many SOIs and doing the biblio and many many more. Thanks for always being so on and bringing laughter to our grp (while sacrificing one person because that person will ganna suan-ed by you LOl). We had fun learning to recite your script, poking fun at your 10 o'clock-mus-sleep habit. Don't worry, we don't blame you at all! We know you tried your best, you are really hardworking and we are blessed to have you in our grp! Thank you Lineatte!
To our dearest video editor cum outing planner Wei Jie:
Thanks soo much for staying up late 2 days before OP to chiong our video. Without the video, our OP will never reach its intended effect. I really though that our OP's atmosphere was right! Thanks for always trying to plan movie outings/peranakan museum outings. Although we always reject your request, we can see that you really want to bond with us as a PW team and inject fun into PW. Maybe its just that our schedule can't accomodate each other, but i'm quite sure, we'll have an outing soon :) I still remember being worried for you the day before OP cos you kept forgetting. But i really want to say your OP is not bad, its a loong way since 1st trials. So, don't be disheartened, you'll do fine, really! Thank you Wei Jie!

These wonderrful memories of PW will stay with me as i think it is an important chapter of my life! Thank you DH012 for making PW fun and enjoyable. Because of you, i did not, do not and will not hate PW!
Although PW has come to an end, we will always remain as DH012! ♥
♥ you all alot alot! :D

5C21 ROCKS MY WORLD! :D
oh mann i really think this is the best class in my 6 years in Dunman High!
We really care for each other genuinely and i really can feel the strong bonds that we share.
Through the chalet, i discovered new perspectives, had many first-times and most importantly enjoyed myself thoroughly.
Talking about new perspectives, i learnt alot. Some decisions shouldn't be made just because the majority says so. What you must weigh is not the amount of people who will be benefited or "harmed" but the degree that anyone would be benefited or "harmed"! Which is to say, for example if one person doesn't want to do something, put the majority wants.We should weigh if the total benefit of the majority is much larger than the "harm" done to that person. :D
First times -- Many many.
First time rode on a bike for more than 10mins lol.
Was a very very special experience. I got to ride a bike for like 5hours! Although i wasn't riding a bike all by myself, i felt good. As the night breeze brushes against our faces, i felt very happy, like really happy. i really want to thank you to everyone who gave me this chance. Many thanks Jocelyn, Xingqi and yuewan who ran while i was trying my best not to fall off the bike. Many Many thanks to Terence, Xingqi and Zi Le who riding the double bike with me! i know its super hard for you all. Its unstable plus must use a lot of strength to kick start the thing plus i know i'm not light at all! Thank you alot! 你们全都辛苦了！Thanks all the rest who asked if i was okay on the way and cheering me on!
haha oh yea they were teaching me to bike then one guy walked past and say:"one girl learn, five teachers ar? "0.o i was shocked leh and he said in a super audible voice. haha Jocelyn shouted back :"cannot meh?" in a angry tone. Lol thanks Jocelyn. I didn't take it to heart actually :)
We cycled a few rounds around pasir ris park, then cycled to changi village for some food! :)
super good experience haha. most memorable was going this downslope nearing the chalet ahaha. super super free feeling, at first 2 secs very scarty, like anytime can loose life one (quote Zi Le :"my nickname is daredevil leh. are you ready for the ride of your life?" ) hahaha. but after that i felt super super free! haha. Aft back at chalet, they tell me to evaluate the best biker. haha i just said i'm going to give a balanced statement, but didn't sya much. But the truth is they are all very very nice and really good bikers. They have really different habits when biking, like some more constant speed, some constant acceleration, some like to cut in front of other people, some keep giving way :) But i really want to say Thank you for sacrificing your strength and effortless ride for a tiring one! I feel as if i owe you all lunch =.=
Another first-time was organising a chalet :)
I realisedi really like organising and executing activites. Its not about how much money you put in to make a chalet a success, its really the company and cooperation. I feel really happy bcos this is the first time and it may not be at all perfect, but most importantly, almost eveyone enjoyed it. that's enough for me! I think this chalet was one of the most tiring. We had many activities! Haha remember first day i didn't rest until the nxt morning 6plus! but i was surprising not very tired. Maybe i being a exhibitor and programmes associate with NLB is really a job for me! I remembered Ms Tan asking me during the BBQ:"Are you very tired? You should go enjoy, let the guys do the housework!" haha Ms Tan is funny! Den i was telling her i'm okay and actually i enjoy doing such stuff. I think it shocked her! anw yeah maybe its weird to many people lol. Many people think this kind is free labour, but to be honest, to me its enjoyment. That's why i love fol-ing and volunteering. Its when you go help, and people benefit, you benefit too! you may not see it because at the end of the day, you feel shagged, you feel really tired. However, little do you realise that it builds up your confidence, it builds up your interpersonal skills. Talking about confidence, I think i really opened up alot! haha Many people told me/ indirectly told me too! Terence thinks he influences me too much =.= Actually its 5C21 plus FOL!
5C21 makes me feel comfortable expressing my views. I remember in my earlier years in Dunman High, I always feel ignored. But in 5C21, everyone respects each other, although we do bully sometimes, we generally respect everyone! That's what makes me feel happy and proud to be in 5C21!
Anw, 3 teachers came for our BBQ. First to reach was 吴老师, haha we gave her some food and she was eating and watching TV. Felt very bad to her, cos i(we) kept bugging her to come, then she made effort to come, then no one really go company her o.o So being a BBQ-smoked=smelly person, i went to talk to her and interacted... haha oh mann i really love her leh, she's sooo nice and such a dedicated teacher, no matter in PW or CLL. I feel really blessed and lucky to have her as my teacher! must treasure her! haha in the end she was hooked to mahjong and joined us in cutting cake!
Then Ms Tan and Mr Chua came together. haha. Shocked! Because Ms Tan was saying she needed to wake up at 0500 the nxt morning hahaha. She commented on we not having high-class fruits! haha but she's really nice! I think the more i interact/talk to Ms Tan, i think she's a really nice person. The crazy economics homework and drills in class were for our own good. I think she goes to the point of sacrificicing her image to make us work harder!
Mr Chua, very cute! He was eating happily and chatted also. Haha he and Ms Tan were interested in the fonude :) To be frank, i'm quite shocked the fondue super nice! as in i had a feeling it'll be too gross or something. But it turned out super good! YAY thanks may ping for her idea!
After BBQ, we went to this super ulu cafe in the middle of Pasir Ris park. LOl. Zhenzhou and Der Hui led the way. Quite cool cos we were like walking in a forest haha. Anw played truth or truth, which we got some interesting info, then ghost stories session. haha no idea why i wasn't v scared.I think they sounded more gory and scary! 0.o

Second day was mainly movie 'My girlfriend is an agent", which was super funny and ridiculous!, and cycling haha.
Ooh i think the "you are ridiculous" ... reply "no, you are ridiculous" thing is becoming a class classic :)




THANK YOU 5C21 YOU ALL MAKE MY LIFE IN DHS A WONDERFUL ONE! I MISS ALL OF YOU LE!~

HELLO!
Have been pw-ing almost everyday. Today filmed for video. Haha. Really funny but kinda of retarded too. Practised OP too, then half way Mdm Leong came in. Super scary :X Lucky i left abt 2 sentences den i can pass to May Ping le wahahahaha.
PW's ending soon, mixed feelings lol.
I am really bored nothing to blog about because nothing much happened.
Excited for 5C21 chalet though! Hopeits a success.
Ooh Camp BigBang also (almost) on the track le
Class CIP's going to be on track soon i hope.
Guess what my I&R is still in the depot!
SIAN
P.S.: Hey Nat, we really have to catch up!

Hee. Mann my shoulders are aching badly due to the BIIIIG Dino costume thing. rargh pain pain. but kinda of worth it :)
yay maybe i'm gonna be a zoo ambassodor with ying jie and elicia. cool right? haha
sian i'm trying to refine OP script but ive got too many distractions haha :)
kay that's all till my life gets as excited as this weekend :D
take care everyone!

Hello
Let me tell you about my life!
Friday
WR LIBERATION DAY! WOOHOO
we handed up wr! like finally, we even took pictures (:
although we can finalyl not touch it, i feel kinda of empty now. LOL
i guess i'll miss working with DH012! so must treasure times doing OP! ((:
yay DH012 ftw!
Aft handing up, went to eat class lunch. 10 people went :) Quite successful larh. Astons at Katong!
Yay nice nice but i think they gave v little potato salad that day :(
Then then we ALL went Der Hui's hse to play. Was kinda of split up into the Rock Band grp and mahjong grp. Was playing rock band all the while though. I like the drums best! But i like to sing 'The Best Day Ever' with May Ping and Terence! haha
Thanks to Der Hui for being such a nice host with a high level of tolerance lol! :D

Saturday
I looked like this

Haha yea. But I was in pasir ris library :)
Had thoguhts when i was DINO,was emo-ing inside, like really emo.
The cool thing is nobody knows youre emo-ing, cos you look so cheery and happy no matter what. Even if you cry inside, nobody can hear you. Kids and maybe even adults come to hug you. okay sidetrack abit, i ganna hugged by this teenage guy and this ahpei hahaha was kinda of tramautised but was fine :)
Was nice getting hugs and hugging, high5-ing. Fun fun but really sweaty inside. Thinking of it was kinda of gross, cos we kinda of soaked ourselves with each other's sweat :x
haha made new friends cool cool :)
actually, i was the oldest but i think i looked the youngest haha.

Sunday
PW! at lineatte's hse.
I was late for the first time :p but was the latest, sorry cos raining ><
was kinda of crazy and sian. we were really restless haha but enjoyable larh :D
YAY!
Now must look through my script again to try memorise.

Anw i got into WEP with Ying Jie. YAY tourism ftw!
That's all! Jiayou everyone for everything!
:D

MAYPING
haha maypi(n)g wanted me to blog abt her. lol
anyways i am bored now. i have 882 words on my script pro pro!
oh i wanted to blog about how I was crying in Subway. LOL
Zhenzhou too lol. Lucky someone got same reaction with me!
Surprisingly lineatte and mayping can't feel anything. UNFAIR!
haha cos i think they were cutting onions or something. ohmann i really cried for nothing!
My eyes hurt alot then, now super tired ._.
Mann i should be sleeping! :D
Goodnight then everyone!
Jiayou everyone, the end is near! :)

Hello! :)
Yea today's pw again haha but we're kinda of at the fun part cos we're preparing for presentation :)
Was at subway the whole time, we were quite slack today but it was enjoyable cos we tried to disturb ppl from other groups lol. Yay settled on allocation of slides, thus doing them now :)
oh mann i hope i can do stretch (its exciting!) haha

Yesterday was spent spending somehow kinda of quiet quality time with nicole and the woman ooh with yuesing too. They emo-ed, i comforted, more like trying to comfort. I've gone through such stuff before, without seeing the light, but the key is really to get back up soon and carry on. I know its sounds super duper easy but really getting back up can be painful. But i believe with your determination and optimism, you can pull through :) So you've gotta jiayou cos many wonderful things are awaiting you!
I got back my report book, was feeling "no comments" about my results. Ms Tan told me that i can do better... Hmm everyone has been telling me i can do better. From primary one till now, the advice from my teachers are "you can definitely do better","i know you have the potential so you should strive for better results" or something like that. Whether explicit or implicit, they all mean the same. Even my parents tell me that all the time... Am i really not working hard enough to reach my potential? If every educator and my parents say that, I suppose its true bah. I admit I'm lazy at times, giving up on small things easily. But I think I improved this year, during sec3 and sec4 I can really go into a test without fully understanding most concepts but now, I try my best to at least do my tutorials and understand concepts, maybe that's why I'm not exactly dying. I really hope to improve on this and strive for As next year. :)

Oh we have class cip plan le. YAY. let's hope its a success :)

That's all :) I have to go do work le!

Just finished the annex for wr, sent to zz le.
Hmm pw is my life now, kinda of very sad hurr.
Anyway i have this 感悟 and i feel pissed.
i think its kinda of personal so not putting it up here.
But have you ever felt so pissed because people expect so much from you when they don't exactly care? They freaking have double standards and they are so lenient on themselves.
I don't blame anyone or complain just because its a lot of work, its because i don't feel that you are also putting in effort, maybe not even as much as people not even involved. I don't mind doing more, but i hope to see your effort too.

So yup, you're not suppose to understand the situation, but i think most of you can relate to this idea? (btw its not about parents kind)

Anyway, i signed up for story and craft sessions with Charmaine le :)
Yay i think fol-ing is my kind of therapy, makes me really happy, although its tiring, but wothwhile :D

I hope i get selected for WEP too :) Tourism yay
Hmm should i really sign up as OGL?
Decisions!

Got to go soon :D

After promos le ! :D
Welcome to the world of PW!
I have never been so committed to a subject in my life leh! EOM, WR and everything requires a lot of time and it really helps to have a accommodating group but we have to be more efficient and strict with ourselves. :D had a really looooong consultation with wu laoshi on wr and clarified many
doubts and organised our aims objectives lessons learnt and whatnots properly le (after much thinking though) we were really brain dead and wu laoshi was trying her best to be animated to help us lol. Thanks wu laoshi i think you really helped us think alot! :D
Anyway, was super tired so decided to give Drakon slumber party a miss :(

Saturday was fun :D
I loving fol-ing :D Although its something like free labour, i really think its the skills and knowledge that i acquire that really matter ! :)
What the library staff/officers have taught me is much more than what i give them. So i actually gain much more than what i give, that is why i try to go fol-ing as often as possible to give back.
Sat's fol session wass kinda of different from normal ones where i just usher and do registration. I actually felt like some intern and some people asked me if i am a full time staff at NLB ._.
I tried out alot of new tasks. Morning was some "i speak to the trees" talk. Its by this high ranking investment executive who writes poems about nature. I think she's really talented and some other guests from Nature Society, Nparks and a biologists were there to give her comments and discuss. First time attending this kind of talk, its really cool, since i take lit and can gain more insight on the imagery and stuff :) So i helped to welcome guest, do registration, give out feedback forms, present token of appreciation to guests (v scary), do q &a session etc. Very fun, very cool, new experience learnt also
Next was English Literature "The Haunting", cool too. I helped registration and give out water , became receptionist for a while, then they left for a trail. So the staff left me alone in the room to type some breakfast club supper club thing. Then i had to welcome the SPI guys and help them set up (on my own!) and chatted with them. They guy was like "are you a full time staff?" I was like " erm no... just a volunteer", then he said" oh cos you look v young" -.- i think i really look like sec2 how? must be more matured lol. Then got this weird uncle thought got dinner then he come, then i told him dinner's not provided, then he left 0.o lol Some people really come to events for the food! Anyway then continued typing the breafast supper club thing, then went back to listen to ghost stories then helped take group photo and went home. :)
I realised something abt SPI, I always thought they believed in ghosts and try to prove. But after their presentation then i realised that they actually use science to write reports on why people may feel that there are ghost around. Big misconception about them. lol

Today was just tuition and church. Praise and worship was really good today. Totally sang my heart out for the Lord, good feeling! I seriously must thank the Lord for being able to promote and even try to apply for H3.

I am filling up the application form for H3 CLL (What am i doing to my life?!) Blame it on CLEP :x i want to continue CLEP but dun want take H3 how? :(
I think i want to try other H3s too! Biiiig DREAM! But i'll try my best to achieve so that i will not regret! Must live life to the fullest when I can. I must do well now so I can acquire more skills to help more people in the future. I have to jiayou and work hard so I will not be a burden to society. I really want to help people live a better life, so i must jiayou now.
I suddenly thought of my ambition...
Its to be a speech therapist! (but i don't know a levels can take degree anot 0.o) We'll see how it goes! For now, jiayou!

I want to thank you everyone of my friends (5C21, Nicole lee, Puimun etc) for supporting me throughout the promos period, tolerating my ranting and "i am "freaking" scared", "i think i'm gonna retain" etc... I may have unknowningly hurt some of you, so please forgive me if i did. I really do not have the intention of hurting or insulting anyone. So if you think i insulted you, I am really sorry.

On a happier note, a BIG THANK YOU once again.
You all must jiayou too! I'll support all of you!

Goodnight! :D

Hello
promos were not at all okay for me but i know i cannot waste time mourning now so i've gotta spend more time with王利发in 茶馆because i nned to know him and his patrons better so i can at least promote.
somehow i feel helpless because i have a super different feeling about this promos, something i never experienced before. its not as if i nv go for exmas before but this exams, i know i studied, but i don't know if its enough, i didn't chiong last min, but right before i go into the exam hall, i cannot remember a single thing i studied. even in the morning before the exam, i cannot remember a single thing. i freak out and tried reading my notes, but everything i read seem so familiar at the first look, meaning i studied that part. although i must admit that i don't study very very thoroughly but i understand big concepts, i am sure of what the examiner wants, but i just can't produce it. my mind goes blank 3 hours before the exam. my parents told me to rest and not be too stressed up, but when i attempt to slack, i get gripped by panic and fear that i would totally flunk my exams. i think its really scary cos its the first time i feel this way. i am usually more clear-headed and maybe less prepared but i remember more during the exam. i hate this feeling. i still have 50% of my papers left. i really hope to promote status quo, as in promote without dropping any subject. but i'm really afraid. it happened on gp day and cll +econs day. i'm afraid it'll come again bcos i do not know the outcome, i really dun want to retain. i think i'm close to retaining but i really dun want to. lets hope for the better.
meanwhile i'll have to spend time with古仁人so i can promote!

I really should not be here now but i feel really helpless about my test tmr. It may be just 10% but it is 2 grades. How am I suppose to squeeze everything into my brain? HOW?HOW?HOW? Perhaps taking cll as a subject was awrong decision, but learning clit was never a mistake. Cll is just like 3 big fat topics lumped into one subject. oops thats only this year, what about nxt year? rarr
currently really stressed now so not in the mood to blog seriously, anyway I'm an exhibitor at NATAS fair leh! :D real one :) can scan in the wristband if i got time ;) sian. I shall go study now!
JIAYOU CHRISTINE :D YOU CAN DO IT! :)
urgh hope so...

Hello people (:
I have lots of things to say!
Firstly, must blog about this once in a lifetime experience :)
On 13 June 2009, I did something worth to be proud about :)
It sounds like some primary school composition, but its true kay?
I was going for games festivsl FOL at Bedok Library, cos i went the day before and it was fun, so i decided to stay longer on the 13th till about 5. So after fol, i was happy after playing with kids from 9 in the morning. So i was packeting dinner den i was on bus 28.
I still remember the bus was double decker so i sat at the first deck you know the parallel kind of seats. yeah. So later one old lady came along, i still remember she was wearing some grey tshirt with black long pants and light blue slippers. Hahah. Den no one moved to let her sit, when it was obvious that she has some problems walking. So i shifted a bit to show her that there was a seat beside me. So she happily came to sit :) So she asked me what time? (in this super duper loud voice) den i stunned, den another aged lady told me she asked for the time. So i answered her in Chinese. She smiled and asked me what bus she was on so i replied "二十八号", then she told me she was supposed to take bus 8, but her eyes failed her, she could not see properly. She said that everything looked blur to her although it was 5 plus. So i asked her where she want to go. She showed me this card calender with a picture behind. i immediately recognise that its Kheng Chiu Happy Lodge. To be honest, i was hesitating, whether to send her back anot. She sounded very sure that she knows where's the place. The only thing is that she's new to bus 28. I really hesitated, I have to wlk a long way home if i send her. But if something really happens when she's crossing the road or something, i wouldn't be able to forgive myself gor life. Big decision really. Time was challenging me, my stop was coming. Thoughts went through my mind, she embarrassed me by screaming into my ear for the entire bus journey, but she's hard of hearing. She asked me question repeatedly, maybe because i wasn't clear enough. She hasn't taken 28 before, she couldn't tell the difference between bus 28 and bus 8, would she be able to cross the road safely. Will any evil soul do harm to her, since she has walking difficulties. Upon weighing, my stop zoomed past. So i decided to send her. She was surprised. Bcos she asked where i stopped, then i told her my stop was over. She raised her voice and said "不要紧，快点下车，回家吃饭！" I could feel the determination in her voice and through her eyes. She attempted to push me off the chair to get down the bus. I resisted. I finally got off with her at the stop near tampines library. I walked her to the traffic junction, she attempted to push me to cross the other side first bcos she knew i don't stay in the direction we were heading. I resisted. I held her hand and brought her to the gate of the home. She kept shoo-ing me off to go home. I waved goodbye and she told me this "我们很有缘，有缘才会见面，有冤你才会回答我，和我说话，谢谢你送物到这里，我们有缘再见吧。" I felt really touched. She kept thanking me and once again told me to catch the flashing green light. I waited with her, till she went into the home. My heart was at peace, was satisfied with myself. Now i do not have to worry about her safety. I did all i can to help her. She may not be able to walk normally, she may not be able to see clearly, she may not be able to hear clearly, therefore she needs help. I still remember her face when we reached the bus stop. She was delighted, she was in a familiar surrounding.She started pointing the market and library to me, as if that was somewhere she stayed for a long time. I guess humans are all like that, we feel more confident and happy in a familiar surrounding.
After this i began to think, what will happen if i'm old, will i be like her? Will the world, my home seem scary to me? will i loose my way home and there is no one to help me? I realised that i made that old lady happy, i gave her the assurance. She was still looking worried throughout the journey. I promised her that we'll go find her home.
I began to think, I did 8 hours of volunteering straight at the library playing with kids, how much did i help anyone at all? Did i even brighten up anyone's life? Although i could see clearly that the kids loved the games and company, but would they be lost and sad if i did not play with them? They half 45mins bus trip with the old lafy was the real volunteerin g i did that day. Not that 8 hours of games. I truly helped someone, that really needs my help desperately, if i didn't help her, she could have been lost at the Tapmines interchange for a night or more. She did not have a handphone nor cash. She only brought along a ez-link card. I'm really glad i were able to help! Now i understand why some people like nicole lee and my senior lyon have such passion for volunteering. It is a mutual thing, it is where you make a real difference in people's lives. Its just the satisfaction from seeing them have a smile on their faces, looking delighted, feeling comfortable.
I really have alot to say about this and I hope the lady is still happy in the lodge. If i go there one day, i must find her and talk to her. She may not remember me, but i do not think she will forget that incident. “这位老婆婆啊，我坚信我们会有缘，有一天一定能再相逢的！”


Haha. i think its quite emo but i really felt that way. haha
Anyway back to more recent stuff. We've got a new ct.
She's our econs tutor too. Lets put it this way, I think she really wants to help me but she does not realise she's stressing me. If the report book remark was written by her, she said i work well under pressure. My piano teacher says it to, i work well under pressure. Maybe its true, but working under pressure requires twice the amount ofr concentration and brain juice. perhaps she just wants to improve my econs grade.Lets hope its like that. But her hw is kinda of overload, 6 essays per fortnight, but i think its way more than that, considering she wants us to refine it. Hmm, i really do hope i can work well under her pressure. I have this secret wish of taking H3 econs, but with an E grade, how is it possible? Maybe i'll work harder for promos, but many many others already have an edge over me. I am ashamed to ask about H3 econs, moreover I still have to take H3 Cll and i think they would clash. But i do not want to drop CLEP. Its something that i want to continue, for my interest in chinese and for the camp i've been to. (第六组 rocks!) maybe i'm just not good enough, i know i'm not an elite, my parents told me so. I'm just a hardworking P6 that got an aggregate to scrap into DHS. I am a failure who had to use all her extra points just to take 4H2. Ohwell, I have to believe then, sounds cliche but true. Jiayou everyone, I have a dream, but my dream is just to achieve my goal.
Going to do EOM, hoping to get A for pw, but can i? I'm just a sucker that scraps everything, its always borderline...
Maybe i'll scrap an A for pw too, just by luck?

Hi people,
I'm not dead yet. haha. Nicole's right, i should blog more often :)
I shall start blogging about memorable things in June :)
First up was CLEP camp, ok i shall continue in Chinese :D
2009年语特写作营
这一次的写作营与去年的双文化营非常不同，节目不同，主题不同，连同学们的心智也不一样了。在写作营之前，我不是那么愿意参加的。在看到节目表后，更是后悔参加写作营，还在一时冲动下，和美霖与可芸纪自愿小组长。想起去年双文化营做facil非常好玩，也学了很多东西，也迫不及待的想要当小组长了。营前的两个星期，吴老师告诉我德明置身我以为小组长了。当时的心情，不只是惊慌或吃惊，总之不是个好消息。我从中已踏入德明，很少有机会当领导，所以在这重任向我砸来时，还蛮害怕的。害怕对不起老师们，我未看过的组员，也害怕对不起我自己。
六月八日终于到了，一早和舒恩抵达学校。我们很早，但也看到其他同学们，就不约而同地坐下来，一起聊天，像德明语特bonding time似的。到达体校，老师们分房卡，就回访把包包放下。回到大礼堂，就开始交流。我在第六组 ，高二指导员是书燏。我们的组起初不什么积极，是最后一个想到组名以及口号，也是最后一组去吃午餐。午餐时，我们德明的同桌，其它初院也一样。午餐后的讲座老实说，除了工作坊，不太吸引我。这一天，我只交了坐在我身边的三位朋友，回到宿舍，还觉得自己是否不够主动，不够友善。很快的第二天了，我们到了亚洲文明博物馆看康熙来了展览。虽然在我旁边的舒恩对展览一点儿也没兴趣，我莫名的非常有兴趣，看到宝物也不竟像小孩一般的赞叹。第二天的夜晚是涉及康熙盛事的广告，平面以及立体的。我起初认为会非常吃力，但又组员们不懈的努力，办互助与合作，我们一起熬过了。在上台表演时，我们大家都很紧张，看到其他族有着大大小小的道具，心里想着是否我们不够努力，但已经太迟了，只能尽力地表演:) 当晚的表演十分成功，我也认为我们的主题与其他组不太一样,感到惊讶也感到一点儿害怕，我们的方向是否错了。很快的第三天又到了。时间又好像比我想象得过得跟快了。第三天的夜晚是写作营的主题，也称为文娱晚会。通过漫长的讨论也终于有了表演的内容，我们也已非常快的速度把细节都安排好了。我们吃完晚餐还有时间玩游戏呢！我们玩了许多游戏，通过游戏也跟了解组员们，还笑了根多朋友:) 文娱晚会演出也非常成功，但可能我们忽略了股市的流程清楚地向观众交代，是我们的演出还在好几次冷场:) 当晚高二的指导员们也颁发了奖品。 起初我们组都一致认为没什么希望了，何况坐在我们这一排，宣告书的组合。都非常积极。当令人惊讶又高兴的是，我们组获得了立体广告的冠军组。第六组不由得尖叫起来，我也傻了眼，一度还忘记又走上前，帮第六组领奖呢:) 我们这次的成功，要多亏组员们的合作，高二指导员的指导。大家都非常高兴，第三天也拉到了尾声。我想时间总想和我作对，在写作营刚开始好玩时，在大家都近一步认识彼此，有请建立起来时，写作营却来到了最后一天! 我们都拍了许多照片作记念。在不舍之情下告别了。虽让我们告别了，但所教过的朋友，写作营所带来的美丽回忆，会是终生的！

Hey :)
Have been busy recently, due to tests and tutorials but i'm still lagging. My goal would be to start afresh next time and do my tutorials and assignments punctually. Actually i think it really helps to do tutorials before class, because its easier to relate to what the teachers are teaching. Anyway revision is also good, but seriouslt time-consuming, so that one shall to attempted to achieve after i can stop lagging in tutotirals. Although lagging may not be an unusual phenomenon, I think it'll probably be my personal goal cos i'm not born smart so much hard work would be needed for me to promote to year 6 and maintain my 4H2 :D
Fun has taken a back seat, was looking forward to FOL <3 duty on sat but they cancelled due to H1N1 Influenza A. Super sad can :(( the whole week i was looking forward to see if i can meet new friends or something or meet some FOL whom i met before, but they cancelled it. In the end we had a PW meeting (in the pasir ris library -.-), see my 缘分with libraries? lol We more or less finished up GPP and found some materials for EOM but its not very good i think...
there's still school tmr, i 've got a strong urge to pon cos i'm really feeling sian of life and everything abd i dun want to see my ---- AP me early in the morning :( Its ok, she'll be gone by June. :D
I really have to study hard for physics tmr and hopefully get an A or higher if not i can forget about promoting since my other subjects are confirm plus chop fail T.T
Ironic much, physics used to be my worst, and i stress WORST subject and i think if Mr Koh knows that I still take physics (H2 somemore) he'll be super shocked, but i have to thank him, he gave me a good foundation allthough the process was emotionally turbulent (mostly downs though)I shall try ny best to prepare a teacher's day present for him? Yea :)
That's all for now :)
Go to sleep :D
I fervently believe tmr will be better :)
Jiayou everyone
Jc (OR IB *stares at nat nah*) life is not all about work if you believe so :)
i think planning volunteering sessions and going for them helps me destress and grow to a large extent :)
I think i enjoy CCA some much more now than in jh but oh well some may disagree :)
No offence its just personal preferrence althoughi get pissed when people say CSC is a slack and crap CCA. I shall go plan more stuff for us to do so we will be a more enriching CCA to be in and beneficial to the society at large as well :) Look forward to direct volunteering stuff peeps :) (although i doubt csc ppl read my blog -.-)
I guess this is quite a long post haha
Jiayou everyone :)
所谓“休息是为了走更长远的路”，我也该去睡觉了!
大家晚安 :D

Hey :)
Revival of blog :D

Mon
I PASSED 2.4 YAY YAY :)
Dun need to re-run. yay. lets hope i pass my 5 items next week too :)
Napha and physical stuff are just not my cup of tea. lol.
I seriuosly think my physics is going to be quite failure kind cos 21 knows why so i shall not elaborate lest i get scolded or something (?!)

Tue
Yay 5C21 celebrated her birthday together with the March, May and June babies :D
We sang the happy birthday songs (english and chinese versions) 8 times in the canteen during the super packed recess period. LOL. Quite a lot of heads turned to stare at us but we were kinda of oblivious (?!) Its ok ;) 我们开心就好！

Thu
Nat happily dropped her surprise visit to us, yea. She was like super super high lol. Didn't really talk much cos she was like talking to Ms Lin most of the time we were in the cantten, den i went study lounge to do econs essay le, cos heard Mr. Yeo like not very happy with our class, then felt bad so chionged finish :)

Fri
Today, :) went ISD with Jocelyn, Yingjie, Elicia, Brigitte, Zhenzhou, Der Hui and Zi Le. Yay. Zi Le is now known as the Toa Poayoh pro cos he was like our tour guide throughout the trip from ISD to dinner :) Yay, we ate KFC :) i realise we have really different and somewhat peculiar habits while eating.

yay. This week has been relatively slack other than econs essay. yay. I have to go sleep soon, tmr got book exchange at NLB :)

Jia you everyone :)

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!
Yea Happy Easter :D
i just realised i went 3 different church events in 3 days. Yay. Lol. Going to be a better and more devoted christian :)
Anywyas, this week is kinda of slack with only 3 "study" days.
Project work groupings come out le. My group has Mayping, Lineatte, Zhen Zhou, Weijie and me :D
Cool group, we all i and we all live in the extreme east. Lineatte, weijie and me in tampines and zhenzhou and mayping pasir ris :D YAY
Hmm. Good Friday morning was spent discussing SL project, was quite effective and saw many dhs ppl as pp macs, haha pp is our second home le...
Starting to miss 4F company, nic nat deb jiayi elaine lizard denise siya cass shien. Miss the times we spent at the wooden benches in mt. sinai laughing and joking, enjoying our well-derserved breaks.
5C21 has been cool though, the girls are super bonded :D guys too lah. :) but difficult to have common free periods cos time tables are real different.
Jiayou to everyone for the upcoming weeek :)
Dynamics quiz and PI 2nd draft jiayou :)
See you till then :D

Hey poeple :)
Term's 2 started. And i finished my CLL hw :) YAY!
Hmm. Term 2 means more work and stress with PW starting as well as more tests and stuff.
But its ok :)
With HIS strength and diligence, i can do it :) Oh gosh i sound so noble.
Lol. Had a nice chat with nat in the afternoon online. Haven't got time to meet up, hmm busy people i guess. She has many activities in school too, IB wor need i say much.
Oh well, my sis gonna turn older this April fools day :) I'm not joking -.-
Haha. Hope she gets less irritating though.
i'm looking forward to 10th April :) Public Holiday :) YAY hard to come by can ><
Jiayou everyone in everything you do! :D

Hey People :)
I'm know i'm lag, so sorry lah.
Haha. Many things have passed. Service Learning symposium, maths test and many many more. Some how i feel that jc life is so tiring and hectic that i fall asleep whenever i am not doing anything. And i think my health is going downhill too, perhaps that is why we have mass pe -.- LOL. Lectures and tutorials are taking my precious life away as i struggle to keep awake. Sometimes i really feel dumb, when everyone else understands and i don't. I really wonder why, is it because i'm seriously stupid or i dun think deeply enough?
This post sound so 悲 but i really dun have the mood to be high leh. I shall just end the post here and go emo...