Appearance and Reality

2010-11-18T17:29:00.000-08:00

缺乏自知之明的人，最终，都会变成众人的笑柄。何苦呢？

2010-09-14T20:03:00.000-07:00

Rarrh.
Exams now, econs just killed me yesterday :x really felt like crying the moment i handed the paper in, but obviously didnt LOL i only wrote 1 thesis for 1 question, cant even think of antithesis plus its the 25 marks kind i'm so dead:(
Gotta go catch up on the rest of the subj before i die a hundred times over...
Meanwhile, i just hope that eveything will go well for everyone! :D

2010-07-19T08:11:00.000-07:00

这几天掀起了讨论好人与坏人的讨论。就像悦湾所说的，好人分成两种。“好人”和好人 “NICE” people vs nice people. 我认为以英语表述可更为有意思。第一种“好人”，会到处炫耀他的好，所以是大字头。但第二种好人都是小字头，因为他们从不炫耀自己有多好，自己怎么被糟蹋，利用。他们所以好，不是因为他们要周遭的人对他们产生好感，人人都称赞他们为好人，心里得意。第一种“好人”渴望的是人们的一声称赞，人们对他们的肯定。他们不顾后果，在有些人面前装模作样，在别人面前却丑态百出。为了得到心目中，长辈、同辈、甚至晚辈的肯定，就装“好人”，心机特别重。但上帝是公平的，上帝有眼，甚至上帝没眼也会认出“好人”与好人。“好人”迟早会遭到拆穿，后果不堪设想。。。
对我而言，“好人”比坏人还坏。因为“好人”的假象会使我们对他们无所防备，所以可能会不知不觉地被他们一再利用。坏人起码已挂了个“坏人”牌在身上，我们有了防备，也不敢乱惹他们的麻烦。
总之，做“好人”，好人、甚至是坏人都是我们自己作的决定。再多的教诲，全岛与开导也不可能会改变一个坚定的人的立场，只要凭良心，自己过意得去，对得起自己，就行了:D 还记得刘玉英在《台湾龙卷风》说的：“良心知多少？良心一斤值多少钱，菜市场有卖吗？”—可见我们的文明社会已落到了难以挽救的地步。。。
爱<3，
陈嘉慧(:

2010-07-06T08:04:00.000-07:00

For the 119 hours I’ve learnt many life and social skills, for the 119 hours I’ve stood till my legs were aching sometimes, for (part of ) the 119 hours that I screamed till my voice became sore, for (some of the) 119 hours where I get AP-ed by customers of the library, for the 119 hours that were significant in my life for the past year, the memories, friends and experience, I’ll never forget. The strengthened bonds within such new friends, the ability to just talk about anything and as friends although you all are really seniors and working professionals whom I dearly respect!
Friday was the Friends of the Library Appreciation Ceremony with the theme of MAGIC! Haha. Due to econs exam in the afternoon >,< I couldn’t dress up for the occasion or something, so I just went in sch based tee haha. “You are the Magic in our lives!” was the slogan for the night and it started with obviously crap conversations with Charmaine and Kristof, 2 very very good friends I’ve made through fol-ing. Kristof really makes ridiculous comments that make you literally rofl and I guess his nature makes him very sociable and well-known haha. Then was speeches by some library branch managers, so honoured to be specially mentioned by Valerie, from Marine Parade library :p She was an officer that I always saw and I realized we could communicate well hahaha :D I saw Mdm Heng too, branch manager of Pasir Ris library. Haha I must thank her too, she is always very grateful to all fols at PRPL and always takes care of our welfare very well! She will just make sure we don’t over-tire and sometimes uses her funds to treat us too :D hehe. So glad that she recognized me and we chatted for a while haha she said I don’t appear so often le lol (inner thoughts: if no a level I will appear every week kind haha) Took a photo with her. Aft that was some story telling, quite cool :D Actually I think Serenne, Azi and the whole team took much effort to plan this thing for us :D Really appreciate them for being so nice and caring too! Honestly speaking, although the food, atmosphere does make a difference, the most important and enjoyable thing to me in the party was to interacte, and to enjoy the company  Usually even if we volunteer together, we can’t keep chatting so conversations were limited. Only through this party can we chat non-stop, even all the way home! I chatted with Angeline the most I think. Although she’s already a teacher but we still can chat like friends. I’m super comfortable with her and I just share my troubles while she shares hers too  She inspires me to do my best in life and not to stress myself up and even gave me ideas on internship and higher education lol. I saw several other elders whom I respect but treat me as friends and some of them even take care of me oops haha but I do repay their kindness by also taking an extra bottle of water for them, ask if they’re okay if they stood for a few hours… Reflecting on what Ms Tay (some director of public libraries) said, I was abit offended when she said elderly volunteers were more steady and frequent while youth volunteers tend to be more inconsistent in their duties. I felt offended because we are youths, students with many other commitments so we cannot be there to help them all the time, especially during school terms. As for me only, I make sure I don’t boycott any duties I’ve signed up for. If its last minute, I’ll try my best to inform Serenne, through sms. So although I agree we are less frequent and tend to appear only during term breaks, we still (or at least most of us) take pride in our duty and do it to the best of our abilities. Oh well, 自己不心虚就好:p
Recalling the many events I’ve participated in, no doubt I still enjoy large events, especially those held at the plaza at NLB, but Pasir Ris Library has also given me much memories :D Large events include Asian Children Festival (its still the best :D), book exchange,… These events let me make new friends, both young and old, as well as improve my “customer-service” skills, although job scope may be seen as mere “saikang” sometimes, such as collecting baskets, through the day, you realize your job scope includes getting baskets for people, answering different enquiries, directing the patrons to the start of queue, directing people to the different sections of books… Other jobs such as registration of certain activities were obviously more service oriented which tested my ability to adapt to situations and to tackle some customers that were not very patient. Asian Children Festival 2009 was the most memorable one. I was first supposed to guide the oh-so-long queue for tickets for the free workshops, (I thought hehe not bad :p), then my job scope increased to making sure that they were in the right queues which then automatically included explaining how the entire ACF works and what they’re supposed to do throughout the day. Then some discontentment among parents whol couldn’t get tickets arose, then I was told to take down the number of people and required tickets in the queue so that they wouldn’t be queueing up for nothing. Ahaha. This is the really tricky part. When you reach 20pax, then (inner thoughts: ohno how to reject the next person, sure scream at me one >.<) you tactfully and politely say that there are 20 ppl in front of you so I’m afraid your child may not get to participate in the workshop. *crosses fingers* hopes for the best. Responses( from mild to ridiculous) : huh like that also can ar? Anyway thanks for telling me if not I queue for 2 hours for nothing/ oh okay lorh, baby, they say cannot then cannot lorh/ what?! I queue for 1 hour already then you tell me no more space *&%^$@!%^&/what kind of orgranisation is it? Your planning so poor ar?/ I am very unhappy, first you tell me this one need to queue, queue already say no more, just now also like that, I am very very unhappy (in ascending tone) /&*^%$#@#@$%^!!!! Hahaha yup that’s about all. But the worst is when someone starts complaining to me, then ppl around that person starts joining in, and 我只能任由他们骂=.= Before the event, I told myself to stop using “I’m just a volunteer” as an excuse. Actually during briefing the officers told us just say “I’m just a volunteer” when the customers get unhappy hahaha. But I wanted a breakthrough, I couldn’t always rely on that excuse mah lol. Although throughout the day, I got scolded like 80% of the time when politely informing them that the slots are filled up, we need to see your child before we can issue tickets, you can only start queueing one hour before (change to we can’t control when you want to queue but we can only issue 1 hour before). It was really an experience, being on your feet from 830 to 7 and enduring ridiculous remarks and blah blah blah hmmm but somehow I felt that I’ve learnt a lot. A lot in terms of people skills, how to appease them and not enrage them further, how to settle such situations with a smile without losing my cool, how to not always depend on the really busy officers, and many many more! I almost broke down once, when they all surrounded me and started screaming. :o To think of it, it could have looked hilarious, like 5 aunties and uncles surrounding 1 poor 17 year old volunteer and screaming. But as I told myself to keep calm and Serenne came to my rescue, I became much stronger after that :D Was actually proud of myself :D
Book exchange 2009 was cool too. I held the “Please Queue Here” board all the way up, hands were tired sore but quite fun hahaaha. The librarians at the back of the queue all showered my with auntily-love :D
Other very enjoyable/memorable events included the talks and seminas organized by Ms Athena and Ms Huda. The best was that day spent as Ms Athena’s assistant for 2 events consecutively :D I doubled/tripled/quadrupled as registration/feedback form/helper giving out tokens of appreciation to goh/entertaining SPI speakers and helping them set up while waiting for participants to come back from their trail….. Learnt a lot through that too :D
Pasir Ris Library is still my favourite community library to volunteer at. The staff are all so friendly and there is where I found my close friends in fol, namely Charmaine, Jing Yi and Angeline, not to forget Deyi too :D One of the most memorable was the dino mascot, where we drenched in each others’ sweat and I meet Xin Ee ((:
I have really gained much from FOL and will definitely give back when I have the chance! :D Thank you all my FOL-mates and support from everyone (family for not blaming me sometimes when I sacrficice some family time, PW grp when sometimes we couldn’t have meeting cos I wanted to go FOL, FOL mates for making the sessions so enjoyable and me wanting to volunteer more, friends from sch whom I may have neglected, studies when I forsake you and go FOL hehe…) These memories will last and be etched in my mind as part of JC life :D

2010-06-18T09:46:00.001-07:00

Hello!
Pre-common test slacking in progress :D
Kay actually nothing to be proud off since I wasted 2 weeks and half of this week…
My hols started so I went to study with May Ping on tue, then had dinner with Mr Yeo . I think through that 3hs+, I knew more about him than the entire term he taught us lol. I realized US education is really good for the development of thinking and stuff, its unrestricting, unlike the ones you get in most universities. I think I’ll benefit but no $ so don’t dream too much haha. Another reason is that I’m probably lazy, and I’m not one who will step 120394858319810940miles away from my comfort zone haha.
Aft that the nxt significant thing was CLEP camp. I have to say it wasn’t what I expected it to be. I have to admit I didn’t enjoy every bit of the camp. But its true, I’ll take it as a learning experience. As what Liu Chang have said, take it easy, take it as an experience. I really really want to thank the 老师s who gave me a chance to participate in this camp yet again, the other 德明year6s and the 德明year5s who gave me the courage and morale. I can really feel the 德明精神. I personally feel (as I’ve said its personal so pls do not stereotype kay) that perhaps its either we’re too small a denomination, or maybe cos we’re the newest in the programme, we’re usually left out. Left out not as in the admin left out, but the spirit, the activites, even the people, I really couldn’t click with them. Perhaps cos I’m Singaporean, 我不是中国人, 所以我不能融入他们的世界。不过，连咱们来自中国的德明人，也不大能够融入他们的世界。报纸说的对，语特二十周年，学生越来越少，本地学生跟少。Out of the 24 facils, I can bet you at least 70% are not native Singaporean. They look down on native Singaporeans, like me, they work in a different way from us. It not like I don’t know that my Chinese is not up to your standard, but its not like I didn’t try to speak in fluent Chinese for 4 days. Okay, this may sound ridiculous, but I’ve never spoken only Chinese for 4 consecutive days in my life. Yes, I am Chinese, but the official language in Singapore is English. Being able to converse in Chinese is possible for me, but I do not speak solely in Chinese. So obviously my Chinese isn’t as good as all of you!
I somehow feel that its not entirely the identity problem. It a bit of the sch thing. All the dhs year6s were responsible in their duties, doing everyone we needed to, but somehow we couldn’t click with the other facils (other than the control room peeps :D)
Ooh let me list memorable times in the camp :D (it would be wasted if we don’t remember the happy moments :/)
1. Running for lunch with Shile first, couldn’t match that Taekwondo girl, then was running with 吴老师haha. This will remain as something unforgettable, tiring but actually fun. LOL. I totally cannot believe how lucky I am. Just because lunch was at 1.30 and I ate breakfast at 630, I was running for lunch. What about kids who have not eaten for months??? Was really quite funny, in the end yushan and shile were the 1st 2 ppl to get food for CLEP camp 2010. Haha 吴老师 and I were the last 2 of the 1st batch of ppl. I still remember 吴老师saying 哇，他们包头，我们包尾. It was really hilarious. Cos me and shile were being kiasu, when the 营长said we could go for lunch, we were already running out of the hall, den we saw yushan and 吴老师， then we were all shocked that we were kiasu hahahaha. So we starting brisk-walking, then we turned our heads to see a lot of ppl behind us, so we started running! Hahaha, ohmy I’m laughing to myself now…
2. Playing 杀人where the year5s could come out with analytical and funny comments
3. Playing 鬼捉人aft lunch on day4, to think that I got cheated by Boshi haha, but in the end he was a man and let me off, he was running till his pants was dropping, my jeans were dropping too =.=
4. Crapping with the control room ppl, panicking cos almost all the speakers’ laptop had problem, then halfway the speaker likes to go 上面的同学！,haiz…
5. Food at SSS is the best, best camp food you can ever ever get! They really feed you like 6 meals a day, quality food somemore <3
Was quite sad cos I realized it was really the last time I’ll officially see 吴老师，although she said maybe she’ll come back during term3/4 to help us, it’ll really be quite stressful and everything. I really thank God for such a good and caring teacher. Although she loves to challenge us with her innovative questions, it really makes us want to improve. She always instills this, “there is always better” mindset into us, in both cll and pw. I can say that I took h3 cos of her, and I haven’t regret (other than for having to stay in sch until v late:x) :D I agree that 唐诗宋词is really not easy, but I’ll really try my best  The A I got for pw was totally cos of her hardwork, I think everyone agrees with me. No matter the outcome, we all knew we tried our best :D I will really miss her lessons and jokes and comments…Hope we can invite her for 6C21 year-end chalet, to thank her again for everything and for sponsoring our class CIP :D
CLASS CIP totally rocks!
Although I was really sad that I reached just on time on day1 to see them leave the centre =.= =.= =.=
Day 2 was fun :D Met Terence in the morning first to go AMK hub buy drinks… Chatted on the mrt then reached AMK, bought Mr Bean yay then 138-ed to the zoo. Walked straight into RFKW, memories of me carrying the rabbit :x so sad larh now cannot carry le  Then ordered KFC for cupcakes 21 and the kids, the kfc person was quite irritating, everything plain (no mushroom sauce in burger, no mayo or lettuce), and she cheated us of a side until Jiamin when to confront hahaha. Must thank Jiamin :D
I finally did a proper intro of the horsey station haha. Throughout my 8 CA duties, I have never done a single proper intro lol. First was playing the obs course, I think the kids enjoyed it, except some little boys had some heated argument and cried :o but it was resolved shortly after. Tug-a-boat was epic! Thanks to all the guys who sacrificed their arms by pulling that freaking heavy thing. Thanks really esp to Yong Chiang/Der Hui, you all got wet! The day went quite smoothly, other than I was super 无奈trying to take care of 19 kids while getting splashed with seawater at the Splash Safari show, but it was okay :D I guess I got a better view as compared to the other cupcakes :p
Touring the exhibits was fun, I felt bad for neglecting my buddy Mary, but in the end she talked a lot to me haha. Tried to make sure everyone could catch up and stuff. Really felt like some tour guide at the zoo, at the back part was kinda of rushed but guessed it was okay?
Throughout the day, I found myself carrying onto random ppl’s things/bags haha quite interested though, I didn’t even realize I was holding onto them…
I think that this CIP is really successful. Thank you CIP com (Jiamin! Fellow Logistics! MayPing! Liang Wei! Yiwei! CIP REP/CR Derhui! Games/Programs! Terence! Wei Jie!) You all ROCK! Thank you all volunteers from 6C21, every single one of you did a really good job! Got to see a motherly side of everyone :D Thank you Ms Tan for accompanying us and being such a nice volunteer, helping us in many ways. Thank you Bethesda (esp Aunt Susan and Aunt Imm) for giving us this opportunity to do service learning with the kids at your centre. Last but not least, thanks to Ms Tan and吴老师for sponsoring the CIP :D
I have to admit I’m such failure, being direct volunteering head of CSC but didn’t implement a single service learning under my term… Its really about the group of ppl you work with, grp dynamics, ultimate goal… But really THANK YOU 6C21 (ESP COMM) FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO REALISE MY DREAM OF DOING A SERVICE LEARNING (SOMEMORE A DIRECT ONE) PROJECT FROM SCRATCH ALL BY OURSELVES! IT WAS REALLY AMAZING TO SEE THIS ENTIRE PROJECT BECOME A SUCCESS! THANK YOU EVERYONE! LOVE ALL OF YOU! :D
I shall go rest le :D
加油mugging everyone!
要喝多多的水哦！别开夜车，得注意身体健康！
大家保重！
爱<3，
陈嘉慧

2010-05-26T09:35:00.000-07:00

wahahaha i'm here again!
GP's over now its cll!
《茶馆》+ 《药》
at least i finished PQ hehehe.
come on lets jiayou! :D

2010-05-25T07:38:00.000-07:00

hello!
trying to gain info for GP tmr haha :D
today's cll lesson was T.T , but at least now i know how much i have to catch up and understand and link then draw a big big mindmap then stuy it really hard then get A (i hope :p) :D somehow i sense enjoyment throughout the lesson from everyone else =.=
yay today huang laoshi was nice enough to cancel h3 :D for us to rest and revise GP!
but i went bedok library instead. Found out that newsweek is sooooo much better than times hahaha. i'm gonna constantly read newsweek yay bedok library is cool!:D
okay time to unpack terms and prepare for GP by sleeping. Whee~ looking forward to CLEP camp and class CIP (not really on the tedious planning though) ahaha.
take care and jaiyou everyone!
I <3 you!

Love,
Christine(:

2010-05-21T07:17:00.001-07:00

读者们你们好！
以下也就是心理的一些感触，并非正确的人生观点，但是我个人认为因该正确的观点。
我们作为宇宙上的人类，到底意义何在呢？有些人认为我们的使命非常伟大，是为了彼此帮助，为世界社会的发展作出重要的贡献。有些人也认为，我们处在宇宙上，是因为我们是高智慧的动物，所以我们必须负责管理与规划宇宙上千千万万的动植物。
但您是否想过，无论上帝的目的是什么，人类的野心，人类的丑恶，都在慢慢地把地球毁灭，慢慢地破坏自己与千千万万动植物的家。说我们对世界发展作出巨大的贡献，不如说我们对地球作出了不可挽救的迫害，作出巨大的摧毁。论发展而言，我们人类真的发展了吗？或许在以发展国家的我们，认为生活安定，不再为吃喝愁，人类有了发展。但你是否想过，我们的“无忧无虑”的生活，代价却落在发展中国家的人民。我们或许看不见，或不愿关注，但事实摆在眼前，他们的痛苦可说是我们所谓“富有”人所害。所以我认为世界并没有进步，而是我们把大多的支援局限于一小撮人，让这些人过着安定的生活。但世界的大部分人，就为这些人牺牲。命运是不公平的，但这就表示我们应该任命？
总的来说，人类所谓的“发展”的弊多于利，而这“发展”并非全人类的发展，而是把支援局悬在一小撮人，“蒙骗”大家，社会进步了。。。

最近都在做作业，准备测验，生活乏味，心情低落，但又能怎样呢？继续加油吧！
<3 爱
陈嘉慧

2010-05-16T08:36:00.000-07:00

yay time for a quick update!
trying to study maths now!
this week was quite okay except that i flunked the songci/xinshi test cos i was too dumb to think that 豪放will come out and didnt analyse the difference btw *** & **** :(
but lucky i kinda of studied everything, though not in minute details. Hope to redeem myself duing guwen nxt week. However, nxt week is a busy week. monday maths test, tue econs test, wed guwen test, thur gp consultation.
haiyo i know i shouldnt be complaining because A levels are speeding towards my way!
oh we celebrated our class twins birthday on fri! haha not really twin lah but they v cute! Happy Birthday May Ping and Brigitte once again. Very nice and fun to have you two in our class, bringing joy and laughter! Love the both of you! :D
hmm ohya i'm a 小组组长 in 语特写作营 2010 :D 更去年一样！I kinda of looking forward to it. Probably doing more fol too to destress and not be a kuku cooped up at home being unproductive. I need to improve my productive capacity by increasing morale :D Hopefully i'll be able to strike a balance between work and play :)
But i heard we're having 3h lectures during june :0 sounds super scary cos GP lecture 3 periods already v hard to tahan hurh. but for the future and my dream course in uni, JIAYOU!
Talked to nat in the morning, sad that i feel so far away from her :( probably catching up at the end of this year. Somehow we seem to be from diff worlds, like from schs of different culture, diff background, but the lessons learnt in life and some opinions are so similar :) I realised talking to friends from previous classes allows you to see how the world/yourself/your friends have changed. for the better or worse? no ruler to measure, it just happens. I remembered talking to Prida on 158 one morn, realiased we've almost lost connnection. Actually i think i've lost much connection to golien other than for nat (but we were not even close in golien) and maybe Nicholas (cos of tuition, but still not very close in golien too). Ohwells, i dunno why, maybe its because of some ugly truths i've seen that i dont really miss the connection. (kay i think i'm slow, many many ppl told me they found out while we're still in golien, maybe i was in a daze?)
I've learnt to appreciate cupcakes21 and learnt to let go. If you know its gonna hurt you, then let go of it, lest it really deals a big blow to you. 早知今日，何必当初？, so apt right? haha.
oh yarh i need to say something. My toe really hurts :( some ppl dont believe me rarrh, so sad :(
i've been thinking alot, abt ppl's behaviours and stuff. Found out that ppl sway so easily, principles are no longer important in today's society. Many go by the "its okay to cheat/do immoral things, just dont get caught", I think that its a wrong principle lorh. If you've trained yourself to ignore you conscience, perhaps youre no longer human. If you've trained yourself to the point where negative consequences of your actions on other ppl are okay, perhaps you've already lost the sense of humanity in you. To err is human, but when you do wrong and jolly well know that its wrong, but refuse to correct it, or even continue, i feel sad for you. I cry for your soul to be saved.hmm, but these ppl really do exist in the world, maybe thats why God's second coming is nearing....
I think God has been guiding me in my path to achieving forgiveness, hmm thank you Lord :D
okay i shall go study circles and how they meet the bisector to give an imaginary number. How interesting!
Take care and jaiyou everyone!
Love,
Christine (:

2010-05-09T09:46:00.000-07:00

Hello!
I'm super duper whoooper sian now cos i'm supposed to write my cll essay :(
like cant start leh :(
okay i shall share some of my thoguhts here and hopefully/ miraculously gain some idea on how to start hehe.
these few days quite sian, nothing interesting, other than panicking for tests while seeing your classmates literally sleeping while you are so freaking scared that you'll fail, they are sleeping and you jolly well know that they'll get at least an A for the test. Hmm am i dumb or are they just more prepared (aka closet muggers :x)
though to ponder upon.
anyway today Pastor Colin talked about divorce. I totally understand the sermon and i actually agree with his pov. God hates "putting away" which is to neglect your wife but not giving her a bill of divorcement, which means she is still legally bound to you, but you do not provide for her. Extreme cruelty! By divorcing, at least you allow her to live independently or find her happiness with another man without being accused of adultery.
Hmm i suddenly thought of our PW. We totally didnt think of/ develop this point. haha i think quite gd. As in we thought of the idea of abuse, but still...
Sian i am super sian. okay back to essay! :D
meanwhile jiayou everyone, stop falling sick and drink more water and sleep mroe (while you can), be nice to ppl arnd you and you'll get the same treatment.
oh i saw this book at popular, thought it was sooo true
《计较是贫穷的开始》
Its so true, the moment you pick on nitty gritty things, other will do the same to you. Then it becomes a vicous cycle, where you'll lose more than you gain because some gains may be implicit, but ultimately more valuable than the practical/explicit gains :D
kay take care everyone. time to chiong :D
Love,
Christine(:

2010-05-08T08:13:00.001-07:00

yo!
i thought of something today!
You do not pray for luck, you pray for the Lord to give you wisdom and guide you along to success!

2010-05-02T07:26:00.000-07:00

HELLO!
I know there has been a lag of post! :p sorry sia!
I know busy is an excuse, so I shall say I am lazy haha.
Aft a series of events, I have thought through a lot, though not intentionally, the thoughts just formed themselves up in my head. So perhaps I’ll share it here.
- The individual who gets a good grade/ gets an award may not always be the most hardworking nor capable one. It’s just that the particular individual had the opportunity to showcase and develop his/her talents. Therefore, opportunity really does affect your quality of life.
- (thought of this on the bus) When you were an infant, parents show their love for you unashamed i.e. kisses the infants head every 5 secs, making funny faces just to make the baby smile. Then as you grow up a little, it is as if parents find you a bore i.e. tells you to keep quiet and stop fidgeting every 5 secs. But, when you finally step into your teenage years, you jolly well know that when you cry, your parents are crying in their hearts too, there’s a burning desire to ask if you’re okay, ask if they would be of help to you, but they cannot bring themselves to ask you why
o To be honest, I really saw the 1st 2 scenes simultaneously on the bus, the last one is one that I thought of immediately, aft seeing the difference between the 1st 2 cases
- In order for God to help you, you really first need to believe in yourself and give it your best
- Challenges are a test of your ability, not a showcase of your disability
Wahahaha. I think that these thoughts are really true in real life! So may seem cliché but I really see them manifest in real life, like in my life!
School has been possible only because 21 girls have been making my day by having coincidental cravings for dewberry, chocolate… Being around you all really made school less tough and more enjoyable! Hope we’ll still keep in touch 10 years later… or even for life!
Actually come to think of it, its so amazing how we’re so happy as a group of 9 individuals. I seriously think that each of our characters is unique, but we click so well! Thanks for being so supportive and taking loads of initiative for any mini celebrations/ preparation for birthday! I know actually I’m quite slack one :p Lets hope we continue to stay cool, stay together and fight A levels together yay!
Wed had dinner at V8 café to thank 吴老师for all her hardwork, and also to celebrate her birthday. It was quite enjoyable, laughed a lot a lot. Ms Tan was there too! I think our teachers rock cos they really talk to us as friends, as in you don’t feel inferior talking to them. Had a really happy time, glad to see that everyone, 吴老师 and the entire class has gotten over the depression period aft pw results. Although we’re unable to change the outcome, at least a positive attitude will lead us to greater heights during the final A levels. :D Oh ya, in the end the teachers treated us =.= so paiseh leh, but they said it was for a good cause since it’s going to finance class cip! Hmm I really hope we can implement the cip!
Back to more serious stuff, I think I need to learn to forgive and forget more easily. Its hard to irritate me thoroughly, but when you really do, its very very hard for me to forgive you. Perhaps I need to really start to 看开一点 and start forgiving and forgetting. Hope the Lord can help me on this. I shall pray for forgiveness and the power t o forgive (:
Hee, I think that’s abt all! Tmr gg to study with May Ping! Hope that it’ll be productive! Got 4 econs part a essays to do! Hmm jiayou everyone for everything!
Ooh and Zul I know you’re trying really hard now! Just tahan a while more only! Cheer up kay, don’t be so pessimistic liao! I support you all the way! Hope you get out of NS soon! Hope to see you and hear good news during FOL party! :D Take care!
Wishing everyone success/ to be in the mood of mugging( I think v impt)/health and everything you need!
Love,
Christine (:

2010-04-16T20:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was an ultimately tiring day, mentally and emotionally (which automatically results in physical fatigue)
Many happy faces, but none from 21. When 吴老师 broke the news to us, my heart sank. However, i was hoping maybe it wasnt as good as last year, and since cohort average was 76% A, it cant be very bad. I was probably dumb and too scared, i actually didnt see my grade the first time. but thats no impt, seeing my well deserving classmates crying was heart wrenching. But i had to put up a strong front, to comfort them, or even humour them. but it didnt help.I could feel the pain, I could feel the sorrow, I could feel the sense of 不甘心。Truth be told, I believe most people are unhappy not because they are disappointed with their results. Most of the discontent stems from comparing, then blaming injustice. I understand, although I’m in no position because I am not a victim, I must say, I’ve definitely felt this way before. But I remember telling Yuewan你的成绩会改，他的性格一定不会改！ I know that this result matters, because the world is too reliant on such unjustifiable information. But its really important to put this into perspective, you still have more than half the battle in your hands. The most important battle is coming, not over. As long as we can pull ourselves together and conquer the next battle, we will celebrate our final victory.
I have learnt much from this. It was quite a shock, and our reactions/ mood was a shock too. Never did I think that I will feel that unhappy and sad. Never did I even think that there wouldn’t be even a tinge of happiness around me. Maybe it’s the really pleasant nature of our class, really no more was happy. Other classes were rid of EQ seriously. “Hey you wanna see my A?” “Eh 21 all As right?” “eh you all scared what got *老师 sure A one”
Don’t you see people crying, don’t you see that no one is smiling. Do you know the pressure you all put upon us, do you know the torturing expectations and pressure you put on our st? do you ALL realize how insensitive and rid of humanity you all were? Do you know what rubbing salt on the wound is? You all were practically putting lime juice on our wounds!
And I hope *老师, please stop blaming yourself. We knew we worked hard, you definitely knew you worked hard. You were the best tutor, the effort and time and sacrifices, we all will NEVER forget. Although we really couldn’t find a reason why our results were like that, this is definitely not the time to point fingers. Nobody is to be blamed. I believed the whole class will agree with me that we CANNOT, and I repeat CANNOT blame you. However unjustifiable it may be, I think we all knew that we have learnt from this. So please don’t feel sad, please take care, and I will also be praying for you. Thank you once again. Happy birthday in advance too.
So I sincerely pray and hope that 21, we all move forward as a class, aiming for best A level results in the near future.
Regards,
Christine

2010-03-31T08:05:00.000-07:00

hello people :D
tmr's kaleidescope so theres time to blog today :)
school has been quite hectic and me being sick is worsening the situation :p
anyway i think career day and everything has really got me thinking on what i want to achieve in the future. the course i want/ the career i want. so far, my goal would be to become a speech therapist. many people may think speech therapist are like professional doctors, just that they earn 10 times more. but no the speech therapist i want to be is the type that works at public clinics/hospitals or even go down to vwos. i do not want to serve rich kids. i want to reach out to the middle and low income kids with speech disabilities. not being able to express oneself is really a torture and i want every kid to be able to express themselves, and not feel frustrated just because they cannot express themselves. i will be contented to earn $2000+ a month although i could be earning $10000 by opening up a clinic. everyday when i go to work, i want to look forward to helping someone, improving the quality of someone's life, and not think abt how much money i'm gg to earn. i will not let money matters bother me because i know He provides :D
haha. but i have to study triply hard cos there is only master of science (speech pathology) in singapore. so if i want to start taking a degree, i would need to go overseas which means i need a scholarship because i know my parents can't afford to send me overseas (even if they can, means it'll be really really tough) i can boldly say that i will not break the bond if i get a scholarship because i will be contented with a job that can help people. i do not think that i will job-hop due to attractive salary. but thats my current mindset. it may change in time to come, but i hope it wouldnt lol
school has been boring, kind of overwhelming. i suddenly feel lost in gp. :p scared of ms tan too. better do more reading and work hard. econs ms tan is getting scary too. must read more and try to understand too and maybe consult her soon.
sian gg to edit class cip proposal :D seeyou guys soon (if anyone still reads my blog)

2010-03-22T09:05:00.000-07:00

ohmy i'm very sian. i still have a 微型小说 to complete after finishing a 茶馆 essay. ohwell my night is filled with cll and more cll. i havent finish econs too. :( lagging in maths and physics. ohmann thats all my subjects lol. kay not funny. i shall go find inspiration to write my short story. Jiayou everyone, brace the busy and boring term ahead! :D

2010-03-14T23:10:00.000-07:00

Yo people!
Been really busy, but its an excuse hahahaha
Took many many testssss and feel super sian like don't want to study anymore cos very sick of it. :(
but for my future still must study sian ttm ><
somehow i think this year less 顺利，as compared to 2009 but i shall try to get out of this mindset lol
heard pw results coming out, hope our whole group get A yay. I think we all deserve it and we should get A cos 吴老师 deserves it too for helping and pia-ing with us :D
hols now, suprisingly free of commitments which means i must finish all my hw and be a gd girl. Talking of hw, last fri was scary cos its the 1st time i see teacher chase students out bcos they never do tutorial :/ very scary, although i got do but still scary for me cos there were only 4 students to target questions at in the end :x and i'm the lousiest there and i have the habit of staring in the teacher's eyes when they teach o.o
kay i should go continue stoning and hopefully do some hw!
i am stuck at physics :(
jiayou everyone.
i think this post not coherent because don't have constant phase difference.
HAHAHA

2010-03-04T05:30:00.000-08:00

yo people. i am bored and totally do not feel like studying for physics :( but heard its easy so it probably smart to study ><
hahaha many funny+embarrasing things happened , I really <3 6C21 hahaha many happy times and memories.
1. today ms tan asked me to point out the shortage, so i went to her high tech tablet pc and i had difficulties using the "pen" and spelt unplanned as uplanned and wrote investment instead of disinvestment by mistake :S then the class laugh =.=
2. i was super dead and tired on bus 30 where i met justin first, then ms tan :o then she came to sit beside me and chatted for like 7 sentences then she told me i could doze off and ignore her o.o obviously i was more awake than i was in econs lecture oops
3. playing touch rugby is a newly defined style & speed
4. laughing at each other for weird reasons
5. target ppl and start suaning :D
:) happy but tired day... this week's ending, nxt week's coming, more suffering yay :(

2010-02-24T03:10:00.001-08:00

SORRY READERS! (if there're still any)
I have been neglecting this blog for a little too long oops.
Anyway life has been 一天比一天糟！
Loads of hw + lack of sleep + lack of interesting activities = sad & tired me :/
BUT i believe i can do it through HIM :D
I really dunno what to do without HIM helping me in my daily chores!

Anw i blogged today to kinda of rant and get it off my chest. I hope i'll feel better aft this :)
我不能容忍你这种态度，若你还是继续这样，在人生中很难会有突破与成功，也很难会快乐。或许你认为不重要，但对我来说，做任何事都得尽心去完成，更何况是正规作业。虽然可能不打分，但也不能马虎。与你合作可说是困难重重。在我的角度，你付出的只是冰山一角。我们约好时间，你没有一次准时到，而我所做的，你也当成是自己做的。可能我天生不爱麻烦，没有说穿你，避免和你翻脸，但心里这感受，不发泄对我来说也很辛苦。或许我自己做可能早就完成了，但我没有那么做。因为若我那么做，后果是你会陪看穿。我每次都以笑容与你交谈，但心里却快沉不住气来了。我不想和你翻脸，一年多的友情，我付出的，我不希望一转眼就落空，可嫩黄你没有发现，我到处包容你，但你给予我的却是埋怨，令我失望，也无话可说。我知道你生活中的priorities 与我的完全不同，但升位学生阶段的你，不是应该专心读书吗。我真的认为你的生活态度非常不应该，但我不要和你翻脸。我没有说穿你，可能表面上是在维护你，但这是个错误。我一再的给你机会，你有争取吗？我真的好想好好骂你一顿，但谁叫你天性比我凶？但我真的想为你祷告，希望你会有醒悟的一天，我真心希望这次没有害了你。
okay i feel much better now. sometimes i hate my nature, my cowardy nature. i am afraid of trouble, i want peace, i am willing to give in, but ultimately, both parties lose out and i think i am doing the other injustice. maybe i should grow stronger and learn to voice out my opinions, but again i don't want to hurt relationships. maybe thats the irony of life.
well, i should go research abt marriage now! presentation on friday!
hope my life will improve!
jiayou for everything everyone :D

2009-12-29T19:54:00.000-08:00

i know its kinda of late but i really want to post this christmas song lyrics haha
The Meaning of Christmas
the meaning of christmas is loving,
a heart without hating or striving
the meaning of christmas,
dispelling the darkness
the meaning of christmas is You

christmas tree and santa claus and jingle bells,
they are only incidental things.
God has given me his very best as you can tell
so what about the precious love He can bring?

the meaning of chrismas is loving
men's deep sorrow rejoicing
the meaning of christmas
dispelling the darkness
the meaning of Christmas is You!

i find this a really meaningful song with a catchy tune! :D
have been neglecting lots of things in life.
hard to strike a balance sometimes.
oh well what done cannot be undone so i should just continue working hard to strike a balance.

ohya i see the 政治黑暗now hahaha no point guessing what i'm referring to...

anw i really miss my friends whom i've not seen (nicole, pmz!,...)
hope to get to go out and crap/ catch up soon!
:)

2009-11-25T06:02:00.000-08:00

HELLO :D
I know my blog's kinda of dead o.o
sigh... my busy schedule. <--- excuses
ANW, my life has been pretty fulfilling with no breaks haha. Since i have an interesting life, must share with you all. Kay s i go event by event ;)
First thing aft handing up GPF was imac clep training. Was quite shocked to see only 6 ppl in the class. i think cos its non-compulsory (and 2 of them went cos they were the chair+vice-chair of clep lol). It was reduced to only 4 ppl on the second day 0.o haha. Fri mon went to white sands to do imac proj with shuen! That girl was late larh ._. anw we couldn't really decide and photobooth was tempting so we did a bit and cam-whored on photobooth!
Sat was donation drive... kinda of wasted my day becuase it was really fruit-less. Although i will still get the hours (i think) but really didn't do much. It was some MusicSG project, where we will be collecting music scores, CDs, DVDs, programmes. The catch is that it must be written/ composed by Singaporeans and preferabbly from the 1940-80s. The scope is super duper narrow. I mean i'm not saying spore is lousy but the number of Singaporean composers who publishes albums is like really little. Hmm maybe the committe heading this project must re-consider on scope? I think that its a good initiative, but maybe need a wider scope...
Sunday was just spamming theory at home then church!
Mon- Fri : WEP at STA
First 2 days were quite bad because we were super bored and only picked up phonecalls (which made the retail ppl abit pissed) and paste stickers on brochures =.= Somemore 2nd day i was packing the cramped and dirty storeroon :(
Aft that was relatively better cos i got to learn how to use iBrains, Abacus, issue insurance and pack the Tour Manager (TM) file and print booklets and fold and staple hahahaha.
The people there all quite nice, but i think the boss a bit erm unpredictable ( like you don't know when she's joking...) other than that quite okay , haha i am like in the grp department with nice people like Krystle, Raymond and Rosy. They may look a bit fierce (except krystle) but they are really very nice. i think the only down side abt this wep is $10 a day. and Bugis food quite expensive :(
Sian i feel sian. I shall blog abt asian children festival nxt time!
Menawhile, jiayou everyone!

2009-11-13T07:36:00.000-08:00

Yay. We handed up GPF :)
Official end of PW! I really would miss PW! Meeting on sat and spending abt 1 hour trying to find plugs. All these memories wil lbe part of me!
Still remember embarrassing times when the carl's junior plug was fake, making fun of the superdog manager cos he was using the plug.
Rembers fun times when we were crazy thinking of ideas when everyone went crazy. literally everyone in the group haha. the fun times when we used zhenzhou's and weijie's facebook account to post funny comments! Remeber the time when zhenzhou, weijie and I cried in subway becauseof onions. (but lineatte and mayping couldn't really feel it =.=). Remember that late night spent in school till 1130 for WR consultation. reached home at 1plus, was still on 12 at 12plus.
Remember the times we were all so restless and became crazy, talking abt weird stuff helping zz/wj mousehunt...
Remember the times when we can all recite lineatte's script, thinking of weird hand gestures, like put hands on top of head to form a heart shape and turn one round when say "The Everlasting Waltz of Life", stretch when saying "STRETCH", tying the not when saying "couples who are deciding the knot".
Will always remember the time i was so lag that i hit the table retardedly...
I will miss working with everyone of you. Although to be frank, i felt quite hopeless and helpless at that time when everyone finished GPP and we just changed topic :/ But now i think its worth it. We've come a long way and now The Everlasting Waltz of Life is really a good strategy and i think we were really creative.
It was really nice working with DH012 and i believe we will still remain as a bonded pw team with默契, i mean good rapport.
To our dearest group leader Zhen Zhou:
Must really thank you for organising all the meetings, for trying your best to accomodate everyone's schedule.I mean its v challenging and i think i've given you quite alot of trouble. Without complain, you plan for meetings and allocate/compile our work.
Although we always complain that you play too much mousehunt, perhaps your influence is kinda of great, Dh012 is palying mousehunt now! I think our grp have kinda of concluded that you opened up and became more crazy! Zhen Zhou, we really do appreciate you as our grp leader! :)
To our dearest designer+creative director May Ping:
Thank you soooo much for designing our products. I know you enjoy doing it, but it takes up much of you time too! Will remember the funny consultation we had with 吴老师on this Thur evening where she had to eat her dinner in school :/ Miss the times we were crazy together thinking of fun activities and strategies! Although we always do PW until midnight, we'll always be on msn tgt, trying to disturb (but actually trying to entertain each other). Without you, I bet i'll sleep lol. Thanks for providing laughter and injecting fun throughout our entire project! Thank you May Ping! :)
To our dearest group working file holder cum secretary cum treasurer Lineatte:
Thanka a million for helping us print and file stuff, and always trying to pull us away from distraction. We really appreciate you for finding many many SOIs and doing the biblio and many many more. Thanks for always being so on and bringing laughter to our grp (while sacrificing one person because that person will ganna suan-ed by you LOl). We had fun learning to recite your script, poking fun at your 10 o'clock-mus-sleep habit. Don't worry, we don't blame you at all! We know you tried your best, you are really hardworking and we are blessed to have you in our grp! Thank you Lineatte!
To our dearest video editor cum outing planner Wei Jie:
Thanks soo much for staying up late 2 days before OP to chiong our video. Without the video, our OP will never reach its intended effect. I really though that our OP's atmosphere was right! Thanks for always trying to plan movie outings/peranakan museum outings. Although we always reject your request, we can see that you really want to bond with us as a PW team and inject fun into PW. Maybe its just that our schedule can't accomodate each other, but i'm quite sure, we'll have an outing soon :) I still remember being worried for you the day before OP cos you kept forgetting. But i really want to say your OP is not bad, its a loong way since 1st trials. So, don't be disheartened, you'll do fine, really! Thank you Wei Jie!

These wonderrful memories of PW will stay with me as i think it is an important chapter of my life! Thank you DH012 for making PW fun and enjoyable. Because of you, i did not, do not and will not hate PW!
Although PW has come to an end, we will always remain as DH012! ♥
♥ you all alot alot! :D

2009-11-13T05:29:00.000-08:00

5C21 ROCKS MY WORLD! :D
oh mann i really think this is the best class in my 6 years in Dunman High!
We really care for each other genuinely and i really can feel the strong bonds that we share.
Through the chalet, i discovered new perspectives, had many first-times and most importantly enjoyed myself thoroughly.
Talking about new perspectives, i learnt alot. Some decisions shouldn't be made just because the majority says so. What you must weigh is not the amount of people who will be benefited or "harmed" but the degree that anyone would be benefited or "harmed"! Which is to say, for example if one person doesn't want to do something, put the majority wants.We should weigh if the total benefit of the majority is much larger than the "harm" done to that person. :D
First times -- Many many.
First time rode on a bike for more than 10mins lol.
Was a very very special experience. I got to ride a bike for like 5hours! Although i wasn't riding a bike all by myself, i felt good. As the night breeze brushes against our faces, i felt very happy, like really happy. i really want to thank you to everyone who gave me this chance. Many thanks Jocelyn, Xingqi and yuewan who ran while i was trying my best not to fall off the bike. Many Many thanks to Terence, Xingqi and Zi Le who riding the double bike with me! i know its super hard for you all. Its unstable plus must use a lot of strength to kick start the thing plus i know i'm not light at all! Thank you alot! 你们全都辛苦了！Thanks all the rest who asked if i was okay on the way and cheering me on!
haha oh yea they were teaching me to bike then one guy walked past and say:"one girl learn, five teachers ar? "0.o i was shocked leh and he said in a super audible voice. haha Jocelyn shouted back :"cannot meh?" in a angry tone. Lol thanks Jocelyn. I didn't take it to heart actually :)
We cycled a few rounds around pasir ris park, then cycled to changi village for some food! :)
super good experience haha. most memorable was going this downslope nearing the chalet ahaha. super super free feeling, at first 2 secs very scarty, like anytime can loose life one (quote Zi Le :"my nickname is daredevil leh. are you ready for the ride of your life?" ) hahaha. but after that i felt super super free! haha. Aft back at chalet, they tell me to evaluate the best biker. haha i just said i'm going to give a balanced statement, but didn't sya much. But the truth is they are all very very nice and really good bikers. They have really different habits when biking, like some more constant speed, some constant acceleration, some like to cut in front of other people, some keep giving way :) But i really want to say Thank you for sacrificing your strength and effortless ride for a tiring one! I feel as if i owe you all lunch =.=
Another first-time was organising a chalet :)
I realisedi really like organising and executing activites. Its not about how much money you put in to make a chalet a success, its really the company and cooperation. I feel really happy bcos this is the first time and it may not be at all perfect, but most importantly, almost eveyone enjoyed it. that's enough for me! I think this chalet was one of the most tiring. We had many activities! Haha remember first day i didn't rest until the nxt morning 6plus! but i was surprising not very tired. Maybe i being a exhibitor and programmes associate with NLB is really a job for me! I remembered Ms Tan asking me during the BBQ:"Are you very tired? You should go enjoy, let the guys do the housework!" haha Ms Tan is funny! Den i was telling her i'm okay and actually i enjoy doing such stuff. I think it shocked her! anw yeah maybe its weird to many people lol. Many people think this kind is free labour, but to be honest, to me its enjoyment. That's why i love fol-ing and volunteering. Its when you go help, and people benefit, you benefit too! you may not see it because at the end of the day, you feel shagged, you feel really tired. However, little do you realise that it builds up your confidence, it builds up your interpersonal skills. Talking about confidence, I think i really opened up alot! haha Many people told me/ indirectly told me too! Terence thinks he influences me too much =.= Actually its 5C21 plus FOL!
5C21 makes me feel comfortable expressing my views. I remember in my earlier years in Dunman High, I always feel ignored. But in 5C21, everyone respects each other, although we do bully sometimes, we generally respect everyone! That's what makes me feel happy and proud to be in 5C21!
Anw, 3 teachers came for our BBQ. First to reach was 吴老师, haha we gave her some food and she was eating and watching TV. Felt very bad to her, cos i(we) kept bugging her to come, then she made effort to come, then no one really go company her o.o So being a BBQ-smoked=smelly person, i went to talk to her and interacted... haha oh mann i really love her leh, she's sooo nice and such a dedicated teacher, no matter in PW or CLL. I feel really blessed and lucky to have her as my teacher! must treasure her! haha in the end she was hooked to mahjong and joined us in cutting cake!
Then Ms Tan and Mr Chua came together. haha. Shocked! Because Ms Tan was saying she needed to wake up at 0500 the nxt morning hahaha. She commented on we not having high-class fruits! haha but she's really nice! I think the more i interact/talk to Ms Tan, i think she's a really nice person. The crazy economics homework and drills in class were for our own good. I think she goes to the point of sacrificicing her image to make us work harder!
Mr Chua, very cute! He was eating happily and chatted also. Haha he and Ms Tan were interested in the fonude :) To be frank, i'm quite shocked the fondue super nice! as in i had a feeling it'll be too gross or something. But it turned out super good! YAY thanks may ping for her idea!
After BBQ, we went to this super ulu cafe in the middle of Pasir Ris park. LOl. Zhenzhou and Der Hui led the way. Quite cool cos we were like walking in a forest haha. Anw played truth or truth, which we got some interesting info, then ghost stories session. haha no idea why i wasn't v scared.I think they sounded more gory and scary! 0.o

Second day was mainly movie 'My girlfriend is an agent", which was super funny and ridiculous!, and cycling haha.
Ooh i think the "you are ridiculous" ... reply "no, you are ridiculous" thing is becoming a class classic :)

THANK YOU 5C21 YOU ALL MAKE MY LIFE IN DHS A WONDERFUL ONE! I MISS ALL OF YOU LE!~

2009-11-03T08:40:00.000-08:00

HELLO!
Have been pw-ing almost everyday. Today filmed for video. Haha. Really funny but kinda of retarded too. Practised OP too, then half way Mdm Leong came in. Super scary :X Lucky i left abt 2 sentences den i can pass to May Ping le wahahahaha.
PW's ending soon, mixed feelings lol.
I am really bored nothing to blog about because nothing much happened.
Excited for 5C21 chalet though! Hopeits a success.
Ooh Camp BigBang also (almost) on the track le
Class CIP's going to be on track soon i hope.
Guess what my I&R is still in the depot!
SIAN
P.S.: Hey Nat, we really have to catch up!

2009-10-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

Hee. Mann my shoulders are aching badly due to the BIIIIG Dino costume thing. rargh pain pain. but kinda of worth it :)
yay maybe i'm gonna be a zoo ambassodor with ying jie and elicia. cool right? haha
sian i'm trying to refine OP script but ive got too many distractions haha :)
kay that's all till my life gets as excited as this weekend :D
take care everyone!

2009-10-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

Hello
Let me tell you about my life!
Friday
WR LIBERATION DAY! WOOHOO
we handed up wr! like finally, we even took pictures (:
although we can finalyl not touch it, i feel kinda of empty now. LOL
i guess i'll miss working with DH012! so must treasure times doing OP! ((:
yay DH012 ftw!
Aft handing up, went to eat class lunch. 10 people went :) Quite successful larh. Astons at Katong!
Yay nice nice but i think they gave v little potato salad that day :(
Then then we ALL went Der Hui's hse to play. Was kinda of split up into the Rock Band grp and mahjong grp. Was playing rock band all the while though. I like the drums best! But i like to sing 'The Best Day Ever' with May Ping and Terence! haha
Thanks to Der Hui for being such a nice host with a high level of tolerance lol! :D

Saturday
I looked like this

Haha yea. But I was in pasir ris library :)
Had thoguhts when i was DINO,was emo-ing inside, like really emo.
The cool thing is nobody knows youre emo-ing, cos you look so cheery and happy no matter what. Even if you cry inside, nobody can hear you. Kids and maybe even adults come to hug you. okay sidetrack abit, i ganna hugged by this teenage guy and this ahpei hahaha was kinda of tramautised but was fine :)
Was nice getting hugs and hugging, high5-ing. Fun fun but really sweaty inside. Thinking of it was kinda of gross, cos we kinda of soaked ourselves with each other's sweat :x
haha made new friends cool cool :)
actually, i was the oldest but i think i looked the youngest haha.

Sunday
PW! at lineatte's hse.
I was late for the first time :p but was the latest, sorry cos raining ><
was kinda of crazy and sian. we were really restless haha but enjoyable larh :D
YAY!
Now must look through my script again to try memorise.

Anw i got into WEP with Ying Jie. YAY tourism ftw!
That's all! Jiayou everyone for everything!
:D

2009-10-17T09:34:00.000-07:00

MAYPING
haha maypi(n)g wanted me to blog abt her. lol
anyways i am bored now. i have 882 words on my script pro pro!
oh i wanted to blog about how I was crying in Subway. LOL
Zhenzhou too lol. Lucky someone got same reaction with me!
Surprisingly lineatte and mayping can't feel anything. UNFAIR!
haha cos i think they were cutting onions or something. ohmann i really cried for nothing!
My eyes hurt alot then, now super tired ._.
Mann i should be sleeping! :D
Goodnight then everyone!
Jiayou everyone, the end is near! :)

2009-10-17T06:17:00.000-07:00

Hello! :)
Yea today's pw again haha but we're kinda of at the fun part cos we're preparing for presentation :)
Was at subway the whole time, we were quite slack today but it was enjoyable cos we tried to disturb ppl from other groups lol. Yay settled on allocation of slides, thus doing them now :)
oh mann i hope i can do stretch (its exciting!) haha

Yesterday was spent spending somehow kinda of quiet quality time with nicole and the woman ooh with yuesing too. They emo-ed, i comforted, more like trying to comfort. I've gone through such stuff before, without seeing the light, but the key is really to get back up soon and carry on. I know its sounds super duper easy but really getting back up can be painful. But i believe with your determination and optimism, you can pull through :) So you've gotta jiayou cos many wonderful things are awaiting you!
I got back my report book, was feeling "no comments" about my results. Ms Tan told me that i can do better... Hmm everyone has been telling me i can do better. From primary one till now, the advice from my teachers are "you can definitely do better","i know you have the potential so you should strive for better results" or something like that. Whether explicit or implicit, they all mean the same. Even my parents tell me that all the time... Am i really not working hard enough to reach my potential? If every educator and my parents say that, I suppose its true bah. I admit I'm lazy at times, giving up on small things easily. But I think I improved this year, during sec3 and sec4 I can really go into a test without fully understanding most concepts but now, I try my best to at least do my tutorials and understand concepts, maybe that's why I'm not exactly dying. I really hope to improve on this and strive for As next year. :)

Oh we have class cip plan le. YAY. let's hope its a success :)

That's all :) I have to go do work le!

2009-10-14T08:08:00.001-07:00

Just finished the annex for wr, sent to zz le.
Hmm pw is my life now, kinda of very sad hurr.
Anyway i have this 感悟 and i feel pissed.
i think its kinda of personal so not putting it up here.
But have you ever felt so pissed because people expect so much from you when they don't exactly care? They freaking have double standards and they are so lenient on themselves.
I don't blame anyone or complain just because its a lot of work, its because i don't feel that you are also putting in effort, maybe not even as much as people not even involved. I don't mind doing more, but i hope to see your effort too.

So yup, you're not suppose to understand the situation, but i think most of you can relate to this idea? (btw its not about parents kind)

Anyway, i signed up for story and craft sessions with Charmaine le :)
Yay i think fol-ing is my kind of therapy, makes me really happy, although its tiring, but wothwhile :D

I hope i get selected for WEP too :) Tourism yay
Hmm should i really sign up as OGL?
Decisions!

Got to go soon :D

2009-10-11T08:27:00.000-07:00

After promos le ! :D
Welcome to the world of PW!
I have never been so committed to a subject in my life leh! EOM, WR and everything requires a lot of time and it really helps to have a accommodating group but we have to be more efficient and strict with ourselves. :D had a really looooong consultation with wu laoshi on wr and clarified many
doubts and organised our aims objectives lessons learnt and whatnots properly le (after much thinking though) we were really brain dead and wu laoshi was trying her best to be animated to help us lol. Thanks wu laoshi i think you really helped us think alot! :D
Anyway, was super tired so decided to give Drakon slumber party a miss :(

Saturday was fun :D
I loving fol-ing :D Although its something like free labour, i really think its the skills and knowledge that i acquire that really matter ! :)
What the library staff/officers have taught me is much more than what i give them. So i actually gain much more than what i give, that is why i try to go fol-ing as often as possible to give back.
Sat's fol session wass kinda of different from normal ones where i just usher and do registration. I actually felt like some intern and some people asked me if i am a full time staff at NLB ._.
I tried out alot of new tasks. Morning was some "i speak to the trees" talk. Its by this high ranking investment executive who writes poems about nature. I think she's really talented and some other guests from Nature Society, Nparks and a biologists were there to give her comments and discuss. First time attending this kind of talk, its really cool, since i take lit and can gain more insight on the imagery and stuff :) So i helped to welcome guest, do registration, give out feedback forms, present token of appreciation to guests (v scary), do q &a session etc. Very fun, very cool, new experience learnt also
Next was English Literature "The Haunting", cool too. I helped registration and give out water , became receptionist for a while, then they left for a trail. So the staff left me alone in the room to type some breakfast club supper club thing. Then i had to welcome the SPI guys and help them set up (on my own!) and chatted with them. They guy was like "are you a full time staff?" I was like " erm no... just a volunteer", then he said" oh cos you look v young" -.- i think i really look like sec2 how? must be more matured lol. Then got this weird uncle thought got dinner then he come, then i told him dinner's not provided, then he left 0.o lol Some people really come to events for the food! Anyway then continued typing the breafast supper club thing, then went back to listen to ghost stories then helped take group photo and went home. :)
I realised something abt SPI, I always thought they believed in ghosts and try to prove. But after their presentation then i realised that they actually use science to write reports on why people may feel that there are ghost around. Big misconception about them. lol

Today was just tuition and church. Praise and worship was really good today. Totally sang my heart out for the Lord, good feeling! I seriously must thank the Lord for being able to promote and even try to apply for H3.

I am filling up the application form for H3 CLL (What am i doing to my life?!) Blame it on CLEP :x i want to continue CLEP but dun want take H3 how? :(
I think i want to try other H3s too! Biiiig DREAM! But i'll try my best to achieve so that i will not regret! Must live life to the fullest when I can. I must do well now so I can acquire more skills to help more people in the future. I have to jiayou and work hard so I will not be a burden to society. I really want to help people live a better life, so i must jiayou now.
I suddenly thought of my ambition...
Its to be a speech therapist! (but i don't know a levels can take degree anot 0.o) We'll see how it goes! For now, jiayou!

I want to thank you everyone of my friends (5C21, Nicole lee, Puimun etc) for supporting me throughout the promos period, tolerating my ranting and "i am "freaking" scared", "i think i'm gonna retain" etc... I may have unknowningly hurt some of you, so please forgive me if i did. I really do not have the intention of hurting or insulting anyone. So if you think i insulted you, I am really sorry.

On a happier note, a BIG THANK YOU once again.
You all must jiayou too! I'll support all of you!

Goodnight! :D

2009-09-26T03:48:00.000-07:00

Hello
promos were not at all okay for me but i know i cannot waste time mourning now so i've gotta spend more time with王利发in 茶馆because i nned to know him and his patrons better so i can at least promote.
somehow i feel helpless because i have a super different feeling about this promos, something i never experienced before. its not as if i nv go for exmas before but this exams, i know i studied, but i don't know if its enough, i didn't chiong last min, but right before i go into the exam hall, i cannot remember a single thing i studied. even in the morning before the exam, i cannot remember a single thing. i freak out and tried reading my notes, but everything i read seem so familiar at the first look, meaning i studied that part. although i must admit that i don't study very very thoroughly but i understand big concepts, i am sure of what the examiner wants, but i just can't produce it. my mind goes blank 3 hours before the exam. my parents told me to rest and not be too stressed up, but when i attempt to slack, i get gripped by panic and fear that i would totally flunk my exams. i think its really scary cos its the first time i feel this way. i am usually more clear-headed and maybe less prepared but i remember more during the exam. i hate this feeling. i still have 50% of my papers left. i really hope to promote status quo, as in promote without dropping any subject. but i'm really afraid. it happened on gp day and cll +econs day. i'm afraid it'll come again bcos i do not know the outcome, i really dun want to retain. i think i'm close to retaining but i really dun want to. lets hope for the better.
meanwhile i'll have to spend time with古仁人so i can promote!

2009-08-30T10:02:00.001-07:00

I really should not be here now but i feel really helpless about my test tmr. It may be just 10% but it is 2 grades. How am I suppose to squeeze everything into my brain? HOW?HOW?HOW? Perhaps taking cll as a subject was awrong decision, but learning clit was never a mistake. Cll is just like 3 big fat topics lumped into one subject. oops thats only this year, what about nxt year? rarr
currently really stressed now so not in the mood to blog seriously, anyway I'm an exhibitor at NATAS fair leh! :D real one :) can scan in the wristband if i got time ;) sian. I shall go study now!
JIAYOU CHRISTINE :D YOU CAN DO IT! :)
urgh hope so...

2009-07-29T08:59:00.000-07:00

Hello people (:
I have lots of things to say!
Firstly, must blog about this once in a lifetime experience :)
On 13 June 2009, I did something worth to be proud about :)
It sounds like some primary school composition, but its true kay?
I was going for games festivsl FOL at Bedok Library, cos i went the day before and it was fun, so i decided to stay longer on the 13th till about 5. So after fol, i was happy after playing with kids from 9 in the morning. So i was packeting dinner den i was on bus 28.
I still remember the bus was double decker so i sat at the first deck you know the parallel kind of seats. yeah. So later one old lady came along, i still remember she was wearing some grey tshirt with black long pants and light blue slippers. Hahah. Den no one moved to let her sit, when it was obvious that she has some problems walking. So i shifted a bit to show her that there was a seat beside me. So she happily came to sit :) So she asked me what time? (in this super duper loud voice) den i stunned, den another aged lady told me she asked for the time. So i answered her in Chinese. She smiled and asked me what bus she was on so i replied "二十八号", then she told me she was supposed to take bus 8, but her eyes failed her, she could not see properly. She said that everything looked blur to her although it was 5 plus. So i asked her where she want to go. She showed me this card calender with a picture behind. i immediately recognise that its Kheng Chiu Happy Lodge. To be honest, i was hesitating, whether to send her back anot. She sounded very sure that she knows where's the place. The only thing is that she's new to bus 28. I really hesitated, I have to wlk a long way home if i send her. But if something really happens when she's crossing the road or something, i wouldn't be able to forgive myself gor life. Big decision really. Time was challenging me, my stop was coming. Thoughts went through my mind, she embarrassed me by screaming into my ear for the entire bus journey, but she's hard of hearing. She asked me question repeatedly, maybe because i wasn't clear enough. She hasn't taken 28 before, she couldn't tell the difference between bus 28 and bus 8, would she be able to cross the road safely. Will any evil soul do harm to her, since she has walking difficulties. Upon weighing, my stop zoomed past. So i decided to send her. She was surprised. Bcos she asked where i stopped, then i told her my stop was over. She raised her voice and said "不要紧，快点下车，回家吃饭！" I could feel the determination in her voice and through her eyes. She attempted to push me off the chair to get down the bus. I resisted. I finally got off with her at the stop near tampines library. I walked her to the traffic junction, she attempted to push me to cross the other side first bcos she knew i don't stay in the direction we were heading. I resisted. I held her hand and brought her to the gate of the home. She kept shoo-ing me off to go home. I waved goodbye and she told me this "我们很有缘，有缘才会见面，有冤你才会回答我，和我说话，谢谢你送物到这里，我们有缘再见吧。" I felt really touched. She kept thanking me and once again told me to catch the flashing green light. I waited with her, till she went into the home. My heart was at peace, was satisfied with myself. Now i do not have to worry about her safety. I did all i can to help her. She may not be able to walk normally, she may not be able to see clearly, she may not be able to hear clearly, therefore she needs help. I still remember her face when we reached the bus stop. She was delighted, she was in a familiar surrounding.She started pointing the market and library to me, as if that was somewhere she stayed for a long time. I guess humans are all like that, we feel more confident and happy in a familiar surrounding.
After this i began to think, what will happen if i'm old, will i be like her? Will the world, my home seem scary to me? will i loose my way home and there is no one to help me? I realised that i made that old lady happy, i gave her the assurance. She was still looking worried throughout the journey. I promised her that we'll go find her home.
I began to think, I did 8 hours of volunteering straight at the library playing with kids, how much did i help anyone at all? Did i even brighten up anyone's life? Although i could see clearly that the kids loved the games and company, but would they be lost and sad if i did not play with them? They half 45mins bus trip with the old lafy was the real volunteerin g i did that day. Not that 8 hours of games. I truly helped someone, that really needs my help desperately, if i didn't help her, she could have been lost at the Tapmines interchange for a night or more. She did not have a handphone nor cash. She only brought along a ez-link card. I'm really glad i were able to help! Now i understand why some people like nicole lee and my senior lyon have such passion for volunteering. It is a mutual thing, it is where you make a real difference in people's lives. Its just the satisfaction from seeing them have a smile on their faces, looking delighted, feeling comfortable.
I really have alot to say about this and I hope the lady is still happy in the lodge. If i go there one day, i must find her and talk to her. She may not remember me, but i do not think she will forget that incident. “这位老婆婆啊，我坚信我们会有缘，有一天一定能再相逢的！”

Haha. i think its quite emo but i really felt that way. haha
Anyway back to more recent stuff. We've got a new ct.
She's our econs tutor too. Lets put it this way, I think she really wants to help me but she does not realise she's stressing me. If the report book remark was written by her, she said i work well under pressure. My piano teacher says it to, i work well under pressure. Maybe its true, but working under pressure requires twice the amount ofr concentration and brain juice. perhaps she just wants to improve my econs grade.Lets hope its like that. But her hw is kinda of overload, 6 essays per fortnight, but i think its way more than that, considering she wants us to refine it. Hmm, i really do hope i can work well under her pressure. I have this secret wish of taking H3 econs, but with an E grade, how is it possible? Maybe i'll work harder for promos, but many many others already have an edge over me. I am ashamed to ask about H3 econs, moreover I still have to take H3 Cll and i think they would clash. But i do not want to drop CLEP. Its something that i want to continue, for my interest in chinese and for the camp i've been to. (第六组 rocks!) maybe i'm just not good enough, i know i'm not an elite, my parents told me so. I'm just a hardworking P6 that got an aggregate to scrap into DHS. I am a failure who had to use all her extra points just to take 4H2. Ohwell, I have to believe then, sounds cliche but true. Jiayou everyone, I have a dream, but my dream is just to achieve my goal.
Going to do EOM, hoping to get A for pw, but can i? I'm just a sucker that scraps everything, its always borderline...
Maybe i'll scrap an A for pw too, just by luck?

2009-07-08T19:41:00.000-07:00

Hi people,
I'm not dead yet. haha. Nicole's right, i should blog more often :)
I shall start blogging about memorable things in June :)
First up was CLEP camp, ok i shall continue in Chinese :D
2009年语特写作营
这一次的写作营与去年的双文化营非常不同，节目不同，主题不同，连同学们的心智也不一样了。在写作营之前，我不是那么愿意参加的。在看到节目表后，更是后悔参加写作营，还在一时冲动下，和美霖与可芸纪自愿小组长。想起去年双文化营做facil非常好玩，也学了很多东西，也迫不及待的想要当小组长了。营前的两个星期，吴老师告诉我德明置身我以为小组长了。当时的心情，不只是惊慌或吃惊，总之不是个好消息。我从中已踏入德明，很少有机会当领导，所以在这重任向我砸来时，还蛮害怕的。害怕对不起老师们，我未看过的组员，也害怕对不起我自己。
六月八日终于到了，一早和舒恩抵达学校。我们很早，但也看到其他同学们，就不约而同地坐下来，一起聊天，像德明语特bonding time似的。到达体校，老师们分房卡，就回访把包包放下。回到大礼堂，就开始交流。我在第六组，高二指导员是书燏。我们的组起初不什么积极，是最后一个想到组名以及口号，也是最后一组去吃午餐。午餐时，我们德明的同桌，其它初院也一样。午餐后的讲座老实说，除了工作坊，不太吸引我。这一天，我只交了坐在我身边的三位朋友，回到宿舍，还觉得自己是否不够主动，不够友善。很快的第二天了，我们到了亚洲文明博物馆看康熙来了展览。虽然在我旁边的舒恩对展览一点儿也没兴趣，我莫名的非常有兴趣，看到宝物也不竟像小孩一般的赞叹。第二天的夜晚是涉及康熙盛事的广告，平面以及立体的。我起初认为会非常吃力，但又组员们不懈的努力，办互助与合作，我们一起熬过了。在上台表演时，我们大家都很紧张，看到其他族有着大大小小的道具，心里想着是否我们不够努力，但已经太迟了，只能尽力地表演:) 当晚的表演十分成功，我也认为我们的主题与其他组不太一样,感到惊讶也感到一点儿害怕，我们的方向是否错了。很快的第三天又到了。时间又好像比我想象得过得跟快了。第三天的夜晚是写作营的主题，也称为文娱晚会。通过漫长的讨论也终于有了表演的内容，我们也已非常快的速度把细节都安排好了。我们吃完晚餐还有时间玩游戏呢！我们玩了许多游戏，通过游戏也跟了解组员们，还笑了根多朋友:) 文娱晚会演出也非常成功，但可能我们忽略了股市的流程清楚地向观众交代，是我们的演出还在好几次冷场:) 当晚高二的指导员们也颁发了奖品。起初我们组都一致认为没什么希望了，何况坐在我们这一排，宣告书的组合。都非常积极。当令人惊讶又高兴的是，我们组获得了立体广告的冠军组。第六组不由得尖叫起来，我也傻了眼，一度还忘记又走上前，帮第六组领奖呢:) 我们这次的成功，要多亏组员们的合作，高二指导员的指导。大家都非常高兴，第三天也拉到了尾声。我想时间总想和我作对，在写作营刚开始好玩时，在大家都近一步认识彼此，有请建立起来时，写作营却来到了最后一天! 我们都拍了许多照片作记念。在不舍之情下告别了。虽让我们告别了，但所教过的朋友，写作营所带来的美丽回忆，会是终生的！

2009-05-18T09:07:00.000-07:00

Hey :)
Have been busy recently, due to tests and tutorials but i'm still lagging. My goal would be to start afresh next time and do my tutorials and assignments punctually. Actually i think it really helps to do tutorials before class, because its easier to relate to what the teachers are teaching. Anyway revision is also good, but seriouslt time-consuming, so that one shall to attempted to achieve after i can stop lagging in tutotirals. Although lagging may not be an unusual phenomenon, I think it'll probably be my personal goal cos i'm not born smart so much hard work would be needed for me to promote to year 6 and maintain my 4H2 :D
Fun has taken a back seat, was looking forward to FOL <3 duty on sat but they cancelled due to H1N1 Influenza A. Super sad can :(( the whole week i was looking forward to see if i can meet new friends or something or meet some FOL whom i met before, but they cancelled it. In the end we had a PW meeting (in the pasir ris library -.-), see my 缘分with libraries? lol We more or less finished up GPP and found some materials for EOM but its not very good i think...
there's still school tmr, i 've got a strong urge to pon cos i'm really feeling sian of life and everything abd i dun want to see my ---- AP me early in the morning :( Its ok, she'll be gone by June. :D
I really have to study hard for physics tmr and hopefully get an A or higher if not i can forget about promoting since my other subjects are confirm plus chop fail T.T
Ironic much, physics used to be my worst, and i stress WORST subject and i think if Mr Koh knows that I still take physics (H2 somemore) he'll be super shocked, but i have to thank him, he gave me a good foundation allthough the process was emotionally turbulent (mostly downs though)I shall try ny best to prepare a teacher's day present for him? Yea :)
That's all for now :)
Go to sleep :D
I fervently believe tmr will be better :)
Jiayou everyone
Jc (OR IB *stares at nat nah*) life is not all about work if you believe so :)
i think planning volunteering sessions and going for them helps me destress and grow to a large extent :)
I think i enjoy CCA some much more now than in jh but oh well some may disagree :)
No offence its just personal preferrence althoughi get pissed when people say CSC is a slack and crap CCA. I shall go plan more stuff for us to do so we will be a more enriching CCA to be in and beneficial to the society at large as well :) Look forward to direct volunteering stuff peeps :) (although i doubt csc ppl read my blog -.-)
I guess this is quite a long post haha
Jiayou everyone :)
所谓“休息是为了走更长远的路”，我也该去睡觉了!
大家晚安 :D

2009-04-24T07:36:00.000-07:00

Hey :)
Revival of blog :D

Mon
I PASSED 2.4 YAY YAY :)
Dun need to re-run. yay. lets hope i pass my 5 items next week too :)
Napha and physical stuff are just not my cup of tea. lol.
I seriuosly think my physics is going to be quite failure kind cos 21 knows why so i shall not elaborate lest i get scolded or something (?!)

Tue
Yay 5C21 celebrated her birthday together with the March, May and June babies :D
We sang the happy birthday songs (english and chinese versions) 8 times in the canteen during the super packed recess period. LOL. Quite a lot of heads turned to stare at us but we were kinda of oblivious (?!) Its ok ;) 我们开心就好！

Thu
Nat happily dropped her surprise visit to us, yea. She was like super super high lol. Didn't really talk much cos she was like talking to Ms Lin most of the time we were in the cantten, den i went study lounge to do econs essay le, cos heard Mr. Yeo like not very happy with our class, then felt bad so chionged finish :)

Fri
Today, :) went ISD with Jocelyn, Yingjie, Elicia, Brigitte, Zhenzhou, Der Hui and Zi Le. Yay. Zi Le is now known as the Toa Poayoh pro cos he was like our tour guide throughout the trip from ISD to dinner :) Yay, we ate KFC :) i realise we have really different and somewhat peculiar habits while eating.

yay. This week has been relatively slack other than econs essay. yay. I have to go sleep soon, tmr got book exchange at NLB :)

Jia you everyone :)

2009-04-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!
Yea Happy Easter :D
i just realised i went 3 different church events in 3 days. Yay. Lol. Going to be a better and more devoted christian :)
Anywyas, this week is kinda of slack with only 3 "study" days.
Project work groupings come out le. My group has Mayping, Lineatte, Zhen Zhou, Weijie and me :D
Cool group, we all i and we all live in the extreme east. Lineatte, weijie and me in tampines and zhenzhou and mayping pasir ris :D YAY
Hmm. Good Friday morning was spent discussing SL project, was quite effective and saw many dhs ppl as pp macs, haha pp is our second home le...
Starting to miss 4F company, nic nat deb jiayi elaine lizard denise siya cass shien. Miss the times we spent at the wooden benches in mt. sinai laughing and joking, enjoying our well-derserved breaks.
5C21 has been cool though, the girls are super bonded :D guys too lah. :) but difficult to have common free periods cos time tables are real different.
Jiayou to everyone for the upcoming weeek :)
Dynamics quiz and PI 2nd draft jiayou :)
See you till then :D

2009-03-28T07:27:00.000-07:00

Hey poeple :)
Term's 2 started. And i finished my CLL hw :) YAY!
Hmm. Term 2 means more work and stress with PW starting as well as more tests and stuff.
But its ok :)
With HIS strength and diligence, i can do it :) Oh gosh i sound so noble.
Lol. Had a nice chat with nat in the afternoon online. Haven't got time to meet up, hmm busy people i guess. She has many activities in school too, IB wor need i say much.
Oh well, my sis gonna turn older this April fools day :) I'm not joking -.-
Haha. Hope she gets less irritating though.
i'm looking forward to 10th April :) Public Holiday :) YAY hard to come by can ><
Jiayou everyone in everything you do! :D

2009-03-10T05:31:00.000-07:00

Hey People :)
I'm know i'm lag, so sorry lah.
Haha. Many things have passed. Service Learning symposium, maths test and many many more. Some how i feel that jc life is so tiring and hectic that i fall asleep whenever i am not doing anything. And i think my health is going downhill too, perhaps that is why we have mass pe -.- LOL. Lectures and tutorials are taking my precious life away as i struggle to keep awake. Sometimes i really feel dumb, when everyone else understands and i don't. I really wonder why, is it because i'm seriously stupid or i dun think deeply enough?
This post sound so 悲 but i really dun have the mood to be high leh. I shall just end the post here and go emo...

2009-02-20T03:51:00.000-08:00

Hi again,
Many things have past. 7 weeks of term one, 1 physics test, CSC elections, and many many more.
School hasn't been too hectic but not too relaxing either. I'm glad i choose half science and half arts so that i'm not calculating till my head explode, nor reading too many readings :)
physics test was weird, and i kinda of think i flopped it. Hope it isn't that bad :(
CSC elections are over. I hope i didn't flop my speech >.< I only read like less than half of what i prepared. Boo. But surprisingly, friends told me its ok :D Thanks to all those who encouraged me and voted for me :) Anyway even if you didn't vote for me, thanks for all your kind attention during the speech. Really appreciated it alot :) Its quite a pleasant feeling when everyone is listening to you and not engaging in their own activities. (now i know how teahcers really feel lol.)
Just hoping for the best. :) Results out next wed though.
Mann, CLL has been amazingly improving as i understand the lessons better :) At first i was totally lost but now i think the frequency is closer?
Haha. Oh angel and mortal game also over le. Der Hui was my angel. I guessed it when i received the first packet of Milo, but nevertheless, thanks angel :) Mortal was Mayping, haha , be her angel is quite stressful lor. Cos she's always on the lookout to find her angel, haha.
That's for now, later got piano lesson cos exam's coming ~!
That's all for now :D

2009-02-09T04:56:00.001-08:00

Mann. i feel tired :)
Today was unproductive during free periods all thanks to the physics practical. Haha
Had mass pe today, its much more manageable as compared to running up and down stairs and stuff. Lol.
This'll be a short update cos i've got piano, one whole act of cha guan to read, CIP reps training education ppt as well as a GP test tmr :D
Jiayou to everyone out there

2009-02-07T20:40:00.001-08:00

Hi ppl, I know my blog a bit dead lol.
Have been getting used to the JC life with lectures and tutorials and unproductive free periods. Haha. Mann. School is challenging which makes it boring if you know what i mean. Esp in CLL. Almost half the class are PRCs and they are so pro that we the locals feel transparent mann. Let me give you an example, haha, we were studying the poen from 李白，as in ,《送友人》，then some of the PRCs didn't buy the txtbk but the point is they could memorise the whole poem and write it out and they said they learnt and memo it in pri school =.= Mann, they win liao lor.
Maths have been surprisingly ok, I think cos we only do basic questions and not the kind they would give us in tests.
On a lighter note, Valentine's Day is coming :) Haha. I mean friendship day yeah. Haha. Have been playing angel and mortal both in class and CSC :)
My class angel is nice and my class mortal is funny lol. I shall not reveal anything else. :D
As for CSC maybe cos its not so easy to pass so not much interaction yet. haha. But my angel's nice too :)
Mann, i have to do a CLL zuowen on that poem again. Wish me good luck :)
Wishing all of you out there happy finishing your hw too! :D

2009-01-13T19:33:00.000-08:00

Hi :)
I'm currently at home and not ar orientation ): , cos not feeling very well lol. Anyway also cannot go into the swimming pool for watafest although i would've loved too. Boo. Just too bad i'm a girl. Haha. Scratch that. i actually enjoy being a girl haha.
Past two days have been orientation which was quite fun but a wee bit too tiring. Haha. Me and yuewan took turns to be half dead. Lol. We kinda of "dao-ed" each other at times cos we didn't even realise that the other person was speaking. Lol
Drakon rocks :)
Mon was o-level results and it wasn't that bad for me, it was kinda of expected for mep. Lol. Actually i wanted a A but nvm. I shall be contented. Haha.
Starting to miss Nat (Awww), she's suppose to be in my orientation group lor. Rarr. Hope she enjoys her company of many many guys and as few gals in her new school yea. HAHA
Well, i got shortlisted for CLEP scholarship too. YAY. But i think everyone got shortlisted lol. I dunno how to prepare leh. Its next tuesday. LOl. Till then.
Bye =D

2009-01-08T18:51:00.000-08:00

Hi all, it has been a looong time since i've posted. Haha
here to revive blog YAY :)
So i'm back from golien chalet trying to do BSP... I think the lunwen is really troublesome and long and boring.
Golien chalet was fun. :) It was the first time i didn't sleep for one whole day as in 24 hours. (i know it -.-) We camped at macs for supper and breakfast and kept chatting and laughing until my stomch can't take it anymore lol. BBQ was fun too. I helped to bbq the satays only though. Haha. But it was still very fun overall. I really really agree that classes should not book costa sands lol. It v small and only got one toliet -.-
Hmm. Mon's back to school and some pig is gonna slack at home RARR. And the worst thing is that got O-level results and i will die cos i've got 2 subjects to die for la. HCL and MEP :p
Scared leh. Fail mep i die waste 4 years than fail -.- Fail HCL even worst, later they kick me out of clep (i think i got in?).
I'm really scared but what to do, whats done cannot be undone so haiya. Just wait and see. Wish everyone luck and get whatever results they wish to get.
I'm off to do bsp cos gotta meet cass tmr :)

2008-11-10T18:46:00.000-08:00

Yay. All exams are over. I know I'm a little late but yeah, kinda of busy slacking (?!) and going for chalets/out. :D
hehe. I shall give you all a day by day account of my week. :D

4Nov
MEP O LEVELS!!
kk. It wasn't as easy as expected and the cd was playing at a very fast speed. Couldn't catch up most of the time and I couldn't hear the chords or cadences so I tried to feed in nice chord progressions. Oops but yeah that was what i did. Essay was quite easy though, it was kinda of similar to the mid-year one. So we got to discuss our MEPer jacket amd the result was good many mnay people want to order :D

5Nov
HIGHER CHINESE O LEVELS!!
haha. It was fine but the 报章报道 that i did wasn't easy and i dun think i wrote well ):
However 试卷二 was easier than the previous school papers lol and i think i should get a B?
Haha. Lets hope for the best:)

Yea, MEP jacket is like not done because suppliers are ridiculously giving prices like $38 is the best price we can give -.-
Yea so holidays have not been hols but its lots of fun:)

Oh. I went NHLC with Nicole and Elaine. Haha. At first there was this confusion on the Ulu Pandan CC thing. Nicole was like showing off their intrapersonal skills and she really got us our goodie bag. Haha. *3 cheers for nicle* lol

I'm bored and i look forward to more arcade at aloha loyang with Yuewan, huimin and people (:
It was fun mann.

Till next time, bye (=

2008-11-01T07:34:00.000-07:00

29102008
Yup. It marks the end of my junior high life and moving on to yet another phase of my life, JC/Senior High life! Really dunno what to expect, but shall welcome it with open arms:)
Last day of school didn't feel real, but nonetheless it is the last day of school. Camwhored with clique and a bit with MEP peeps. Dragged shy Mrs Chua in too:) Speaking about our MEP class, haha, we have been a class since Sec1, then sec 2 kindaof combined with DHP so we kindaof spent most of MEP lessons as a level till the Alevel people went over. I kindaof feel a bond with this class, dunno why. Maybe its because of the Golien people I'm familiar with, but the other non-2g people are still very nice:D oh, for mep peeps who read my blog, the jacket idea/rough design is out. It should be a black hoodie ith zip. Yup, it easy to wear and nice :) Design would be something like a gigantic MEP with some chop that says "Survivor"! certified by Papa Haydn. haha. People please support ok:D We should be getting for the teachers too, except theirs would be "Guru". Haha.
So Os are coming and I'm not done revising. Good luck to everyone :D

hee. So jokes to ease the stressed people preparing for MEP :D
Which instrument have the most feelings?
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Sitar, cos it has sypmathetic strings :D

2008-10-28T07:36:00.000-07:00

Woah. How time flies, Os are like must just next week. Wait time doesn't fly, i think it rockets bah.

Enough of crap, haha, anyway these few days are just filled with filling in many many forms. Many different types though, like application/consent/travel declaration/appeal and many many. (: Tmr got mep again, but its for Os, so must go and chiong. I want my A 1 but its kindaof impossible but still i'll try :) Currently rotting here because i have absolutely no idea how to write a page long description of myself and why i want the scholarship. Probably have to 不要脸 and just write some stuff that will probably make the MOE/school people just take a peek at my application. They'll probably like throw my applicaiotn out of the window once they see my gpa can -.-

Back to school, class has been full and vibrant with the BSP peeps back but something really bad happened today ): Let's just hope the culprit will not be able to sleep/eat or do anything because his/her conscience is pricking him/her really badly. Seriously lah, 3rd time already, somthing will and has to be done. Chinese practises have been very very boring but i will survive:)

So there's mep and report book tmr and CSC interview too :/ I really hope i get in....
Jiayou all the best to everyone
Gambatte:D

Everyday
Everyday, i draw closer to you lord
I long to see your face,
And hide in your embrace

All my life,
Dwelling in your holy place
O my lord you've change,
And i'll never be the same (:

I really hope to be closer to Him, to be able to feel his fatherly love and his touch of grace :D

2008-10-24T22:05:00.001-07:00

2008-10-23T05:54:00.000-07:00

Yay. I feel much better today. :)
Yesterday was horrible because it was spent all on sleeping and puking. Bleargh.
I'm glad whatever virus that was attacking my body yesterday is finally willing to leave my body today. Anyway, signed up for the Discovery Camp thing. Hope they choose me so i wouldn't be bored at home and would have some cash. Lol. Today's lesson was ok, maths was finishing vectors, chinese was 试卷二, which was quite ok except for 短文填空. After that was MEP, which was quite ok and ended early :) Went home nic, pmz and yuewan. LOL

QUOTE OF THE DAY: ORANGE AND BROWN!

lol

2008-10-20T06:10:00.000-07:00

Today's mep study was way more effective than any other one i've attended before. :)
I guess the ' MEP Os are coming in 14 days' thing has kinda of set into our minds. Seriously lah, we have world music, all the four music eras with random composers attached, genres and instruments, Haydn's life (!), Symphony 104 and many many others. 14 days left, jia you to everyone mann :)
Sidetrack: Today was such a careless day can, first i left my physics textbook on the subsidised bus servise, then i left my file in the classroon. Lucky, i retreived both back though. The bus one was bad, i was like running for my life and the uncle almost didn't see me although i was waving frantically. Must have looked like some mad woman. LOL.
Right. School has been mudane and very very focused on Chinese. I don't really hate chinese but just too much chinese makes me sick. :( Vectors are quite intersting on the other hand, and there's test on the first week of school next year. I really miss the BSP peeps, hopw they're doing fine and having fun:)

p.s. I just realised there's CSC interview and it clashes with mep 0.o

2008-10-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

Hey! This is my first time posting :D!
Let's just see how long I'll last :)
Will I perserve?
I don't know ?!
Haha

2008-10-16T06:56:00.001-07:00

testing :)

2008-10-16T06:55:00.001-07:00

Testing. :)