Hello people (:
I have lots of things to say!
Firstly, must blog about this once in a lifetime experience :)
On 13 June 2009, I did something worth to be proud about :)
It sounds like some primary school composition, but its true kay?
I was going for games festivsl FOL at Bedok Library, cos i went the day before and it was fun, so i decided to stay longer on the 13th till about 5. So after fol, i was happy after playing with kids from 9 in the morning. So i was packeting dinner den i was on bus 28.
I still remember the bus was double decker so i sat at the first deck you know the parallel kind of seats. yeah. So later one old lady came along, i still remember she was wearing some grey tshirt with black long pants and light blue slippers. Hahah. Den no one moved to let her sit, when it was obvious that she has some problems walking. So i shifted a bit to show her that there was a seat beside me. So she happily came to sit :) So she asked me what time? (in this super duper loud voice) den i stunned, den another aged lady told me she asked for the time. So i answered her in Chinese. She smiled and asked me what bus she was on so i replied "二十八号", then she told me she was supposed to take bus 8, but her eyes failed her, she could not see properly. She said that everything looked blur to her although it was 5 plus. So i asked her where she want to go. She showed me this card calender with a picture behind. i immediately recognise that its Kheng Chiu Happy Lodge. To be honest, i was hesitating, whether to send her back anot. She sounded very sure that she knows where's the place. The only thing is that she's new to bus 28. I really hesitated, I have to wlk a long way home if i send her. But if something really happens when she's crossing the road or something, i wouldn't be able to forgive myself gor life. Big decision really. Time was challenging me, my stop was coming. Thoughts went through my mind, she embarrassed me by screaming into my ear for the entire bus journey, but she's hard of hearing. She asked me question repeatedly, maybe because i wasn't clear enough. She hasn't taken 28 before, she couldn't tell the difference between bus 28 and bus 8, would she be able to cross the road safely. Will any evil soul do harm to her, since she has walking difficulties. Upon weighing, my stop zoomed past. So i decided to send her. She was surprised. Bcos she asked where i stopped, then i told her my stop was over. She raised her voice and said "不要紧，快点下车，回家吃饭！" I could feel the determination in her voice and through her eyes. She attempted to push me off the chair to get down the bus. I resisted. I finally got off with her at the stop near tampines library. I walked her to the traffic junction, she attempted to push me to cross the other side first bcos she knew i don't stay in the direction we were heading. I resisted. I held her hand and brought her to the gate of the home. She kept shoo-ing me off to go home. I waved goodbye and she told me this "我们很有缘，有缘才会见面，有冤你才会回答我，和我说话，谢谢你送物到这里，我们有缘再见吧。" I felt really touched. She kept thanking me and once again told me to catch the flashing green light. I waited with her, till she went into the home. My heart was at peace, was satisfied with myself. Now i do not have to worry about her safety. I did all i can to help her. She may not be able to walk normally, she may not be able to see clearly, she may not be able to hear clearly, therefore she needs help. I still remember her face when we reached the bus stop. She was delighted, she was in a familiar surrounding.She started pointing the market and library to me, as if that was somewhere she stayed for a long time. I guess humans are all like that, we feel more confident and happy in a familiar surrounding.
After this i began to think, what will happen if i'm old, will i be like her? Will the world, my home seem scary to me? will i loose my way home and there is no one to help me? I realised that i made that old lady happy, i gave her the assurance. She was still looking worried throughout the journey. I promised her that we'll go find her home.
I began to think, I did 8 hours of volunteering straight at the library playing with kids, how much did i help anyone at all? Did i even brighten up anyone's life? Although i could see clearly that the kids loved the games and company, but would they be lost and sad if i did not play with them? They half 45mins bus trip with the old lafy was the real volunteerin g i did that day. Not that 8 hours of games. I truly helped someone, that really needs my help desperately, if i didn't help her, she could have been lost at the Tapmines interchange for a night or more. She did not have a handphone nor cash. She only brought along a ez-link card. I'm really glad i were able to help! Now i understand why some people like nicole lee and my senior lyon have such passion for volunteering. It is a mutual thing, it is where you make a real difference in people's lives. Its just the satisfaction from seeing them have a smile on their faces, looking delighted, feeling comfortable.
I really have alot to say about this and I hope the lady is still happy in the lodge. If i go there one day, i must find her and talk to her. She may not remember me, but i do not think she will forget that incident. “这位老婆婆啊，我坚信我们会有缘，有一天一定能再相逢的！”


Haha. i think its quite emo but i really felt that way. haha
Anyway back to more recent stuff. We've got a new ct.
She's our econs tutor too. Lets put it this way, I think she really wants to help me but she does not realise she's stressing me. If the report book remark was written by her, she said i work well under pressure. My piano teacher says it to, i work well under pressure. Maybe its true, but working under pressure requires twice the amount ofr concentration and brain juice. perhaps she just wants to improve my econs grade.Lets hope its like that. But her hw is kinda of overload, 6 essays per fortnight, but i think its way more than that, considering she wants us to refine it. Hmm, i really do hope i can work well under her pressure. I have this secret wish of taking H3 econs, but with an E grade, how is it possible? Maybe i'll work harder for promos, but many many others already have an edge over me. I am ashamed to ask about H3 econs, moreover I still have to take H3 Cll and i think they would clash. But i do not want to drop CLEP. Its something that i want to continue, for my interest in chinese and for the camp i've been to. (第六组 rocks!) maybe i'm just not good enough, i know i'm not an elite, my parents told me so. I'm just a hardworking P6 that got an aggregate to scrap into DHS. I am a failure who had to use all her extra points just to take 4H2. Ohwell, I have to believe then, sounds cliche but true. Jiayou everyone, I have a dream, but my dream is just to achieve my goal.
Going to do EOM, hoping to get A for pw, but can i? I'm just a sucker that scraps everything, its always borderline...
Maybe i'll scrap an A for pw too, just by luck?

Hi people,
I'm not dead yet. haha. Nicole's right, i should blog more often :)
I shall start blogging about memorable things in June :)
First up was CLEP camp, ok i shall continue in Chinese :D
2009年语特写作营
这一次的写作营与去年的双文化营非常不同，节目不同，主题不同，连同学们的心智也不一样了。在写作营之前，我不是那么愿意参加的。在看到节目表后，更是后悔参加写作营，还在一时冲动下，和美霖与可芸纪自愿小组长。想起去年双文化营做facil非常好玩，也学了很多东西，也迫不及待的想要当小组长了。营前的两个星期，吴老师告诉我德明置身我以为小组长了。当时的心情，不只是惊慌或吃惊，总之不是个好消息。我从中已踏入德明，很少有机会当领导，所以在这重任向我砸来时，还蛮害怕的。害怕对不起老师们，我未看过的组员，也害怕对不起我自己。
六月八日终于到了，一早和舒恩抵达学校。我们很早，但也看到其他同学们，就不约而同地坐下来，一起聊天，像德明语特bonding time似的。到达体校，老师们分房卡，就回访把包包放下。回到大礼堂，就开始交流。我在第六组 ，高二指导员是书燏。我们的组起初不什么积极，是最后一个想到组名以及口号，也是最后一组去吃午餐。午餐时，我们德明的同桌，其它初院也一样。午餐后的讲座老实说，除了工作坊，不太吸引我。这一天，我只交了坐在我身边的三位朋友，回到宿舍，还觉得自己是否不够主动，不够友善。很快的第二天了，我们到了亚洲文明博物馆看康熙来了展览。虽然在我旁边的舒恩对展览一点儿也没兴趣，我莫名的非常有兴趣，看到宝物也不竟像小孩一般的赞叹。第二天的夜晚是涉及康熙盛事的广告，平面以及立体的。我起初认为会非常吃力，但又组员们不懈的努力，办互助与合作，我们一起熬过了。在上台表演时，我们大家都很紧张，看到其他族有着大大小小的道具，心里想着是否我们不够努力，但已经太迟了，只能尽力地表演:) 当晚的表演十分成功，我也认为我们的主题与其他组不太一样,感到惊讶也感到一点儿害怕，我们的方向是否错了。很快的第三天又到了。时间又好像比我想象得过得跟快了。第三天的夜晚是写作营的主题，也称为文娱晚会。通过漫长的讨论也终于有了表演的内容，我们也已非常快的速度把细节都安排好了。我们吃完晚餐还有时间玩游戏呢！我们玩了许多游戏，通过游戏也跟了解组员们，还笑了根多朋友:) 文娱晚会演出也非常成功，但可能我们忽略了股市的流程清楚地向观众交代，是我们的演出还在好几次冷场:) 当晚高二的指导员们也颁发了奖品。 起初我们组都一致认为没什么希望了，何况坐在我们这一排，宣告书的组合。都非常积极。当令人惊讶又高兴的是，我们组获得了立体广告的冠军组。第六组不由得尖叫起来，我也傻了眼，一度还忘记又走上前，帮第六组领奖呢:) 我们这次的成功，要多亏组员们的合作，高二指导员的指导。大家都非常高兴，第三天也拉到了尾声。我想时间总想和我作对，在写作营刚开始好玩时，在大家都近一步认识彼此，有请建立起来时，写作营却来到了最后一天! 我们都拍了许多照片作记念。在不舍之情下告别了。虽让我们告别了，但所教过的朋友，写作营所带来的美丽回忆，会是终生的！