Friday, April 16, 2010, 8:10 PM
Yesterday was an ultimately tiring day, mentally and emotionally (which automatically results in physical fatigue)
Many happy faces, but none from 21. When 吴老师 broke the news to us, my heart sank. However, i was hoping maybe it wasnt as good as last year, and since cohort average was 76% A, it cant be very bad. I was probably dumb and too scared, i actually didnt see my grade the first time. but thats no impt, seeing my well deserving classmates crying was heart wrenching. But i had to put up a strong front, to comfort them, or even humour them. but it didnt help.I could feel the pain, I could feel the sorrow, I could feel the sense of 不甘心。Truth be told, I believe most people are unhappy not because they are disappointed with their results. Most of the discontent stems from comparing, then blaming injustice. I understand, although I’m in no position because I am not a victim, I must say, I’ve definitely felt this way before. But I remember telling Yuewan你的成绩会改,他的性格一定不会改! I know that this result matters, because the world is too reliant on such unjustifiable information. But its really important to put this into perspective, you still have more than half the battle in your hands. The most important battle is coming, not over. As long as we can pull ourselves together and conquer the next battle, we will celebrate our final victory.
I have learnt much from this. It was quite a shock, and our reactions/ mood was a shock too. Never did I think that I will feel that unhappy and sad. Never did I even think that there wouldn’t be even a tinge of happiness around me. Maybe it’s the really pleasant nature of our class, really no more was happy. Other classes were rid of EQ seriously. “Hey you wanna see my A?” “Eh 21 all As right?” “eh you all scared what got *老师 sure A one”
Don’t you see people crying, don’t you see that no one is smiling. Do you know the pressure you all put upon us, do you know the torturing expectations and pressure you put on our st? do you ALL realize how insensitive and rid of humanity you all were? Do you know what rubbing salt on the wound is? You all were practically putting lime juice on our wounds!
And I hope *老师, please stop blaming yourself. We knew we worked hard, you definitely knew you worked hard. You were the best tutor, the effort and time and sacrifices, we all will NEVER forget. Although we really couldn’t find a reason why our results were like that, this is definitely not the time to point fingers. Nobody is to be blamed. I believed the whole class will agree with me that we CANNOT, and I repeat CANNOT blame you. However unjustifiable it may be, I think we all knew that we have learnt from this. So please don’t feel sad, please take care, and I will also be praying for you. Thank you once again. Happy birthday in advance too.
So I sincerely pray and hope that 21, we all move forward as a class, aiming for best A level results in the near future.
Regards,
Christine