Wednesday, February 24, 2010, 3:10 AM
SORRY READERS! (if there're still any)
I have been neglecting this blog for a little too long oops.
Anyway life has been 一天比一天糟!
Loads of hw + lack of sleep + lack of interesting activities = sad & tired me :/
BUT i believe i can do it through HIM :D
I really dunno what to do without HIM helping me in my daily chores!
Anw i blogged today to kinda of rant and get it off my chest. I hope i'll feel better aft this :)
我不能容忍你这种态度,若你还是继续这样,在人生中很难会有突破与成功,也很难会快乐。或许你认为不重要,但对我来说,做任何事都得尽心去完成,更何况是正规作业。虽然可能不打分,但也不能马虎。与你合作可说是困难重重。在我的角度,你付出的只是冰山一角。我们约好时间,你没有一次准时到,而我所做的,你也当成是自己做的。可能我天生不爱麻烦,没有说穿你,避免和你翻脸,但心里这感受,不发泄对我来说也很辛苦。或许我自己做可能早就完成了,但我没有那么做。因为若我那么做,后果是你会陪看穿。我每次都以笑容与你交谈,但心里却快沉不住气来了。我不想和你翻脸,一年多的友情,我付出的,我不希望一转眼就落空,可嫩黄你没有发现,我到处包容你,但你给予我的却是埋怨,令我失望,也无话可说。我知道你生活中的priorities 与我的完全不同,但升位学生阶段的你,不是应该专心读书吗。我真的认为你的生活态度非常不应该,但我不要和你翻脸。我没有说穿你,可能表面上是在维护你,但这是个错误。我一再的给你机会,你有争取吗?我真的好想好好骂你一顿,但谁叫你天性比我凶?但我真的想为你祷告,希望你会有醒悟的一天,我真心希望这次没有害了你。
okay i feel much better now. sometimes i hate my nature, my cowardy nature. i am afraid of trouble, i want peace, i am willing to give in, but ultimately, both parties lose out and i think i am doing the other injustice. maybe i should grow stronger and learn to voice out my opinions, but again i don't want to hurt relationships. maybe thats the irony of life.
well, i should go research abt marriage now! presentation on friday!
hope my life will improve!
jiayou for everything everyone :D