Saturday, September 26, 2009, 3:48 AM
Hello
promos were not at all okay for me but i know i cannot waste time mourning now so i've gotta spend more time with王利发in 茶馆because i nned to know him and his patrons better so i can at least promote.
somehow i feel helpless because i have a super different feeling about this promos, something i never experienced before. its not as if i nv go for exmas before but this exams, i know i studied, but i don't know if its enough, i didn't chiong last min, but right before i go into the exam hall, i cannot remember a single thing i studied. even in the morning before the exam, i cannot remember a single thing. i freak out and tried reading my notes, but everything i read seem so familiar at the first look, meaning i studied that part. although i must admit that i don't study very very thoroughly but i understand big concepts, i am sure of what the examiner wants, but i just can't produce it. my mind goes blank 3 hours before the exam. my parents told me to rest and not be too stressed up, but when i attempt to slack, i get gripped by panic and fear that i would totally flunk my exams. i think its really scary cos its the first time i feel this way. i am usually more clear-headed and maybe less prepared but i remember more during the exam. i hate this feeling. i still have 50% of my papers left. i really hope to promote status quo, as in promote without dropping any subject. but i'm really afraid. it happened on gp day and cll +econs day. i'm afraid it'll come again bcos i do not know the outcome, i really dun want to retain. i think i'm close to retaining but i really dun want to. lets hope for the better.
meanwhile i'll have to spend time with古仁人so i can promote!