Hello people (:
I have lots of things to say!
Firstly, must blog about this once in a lifetime experience :)
On 13 June 2009, I did something worth to be proud about :)
It sounds like some primary school composition, but its true kay?
I was going for games festivsl FOL at Bedok Library, cos i went the day before and it was fun, so i decided to stay longer on the 13th till about 5. So after fol, i was happy after playing with kids from 9 in the morning. So i was packeting dinner den i was on bus 28.
I still remember the bus was double decker so i sat at the first deck you know the parallel kind of seats. yeah. So later one old lady came along, i still remember she was wearing some grey tshirt with black long pants and light blue slippers. Hahah. Den no one moved to let her sit, when it was obvious that she has some problems walking. So i shifted a bit to show her that there was a seat beside me. So she happily came to sit :) So she asked me what time? (in this super duper loud voice) den i stunned, den another aged lady told me she asked for the time. So i answered her in Chinese. She smiled and asked me what bus she was on so i replied "二十八号", then she told me she was supposed to take bus 8, but her eyes failed her, she could not see properly. She said that everything looked blur to her although it was 5 plus. So i asked her where she want to go. She showed me this card calender with a picture behind. i immediately recognise that its Kheng Chiu Happy Lodge. To be honest, i was hesitating, whether to send her back anot. She sounded very sure that she knows where's the place. The only thing is that she's new to bus 28. I really hesitated, I have to wlk a long way home if i send her. But if something really happens when she's crossing the road or something, i wouldn't be able to forgive myself gor life. Big decision really. Time was challenging me, my stop was coming. Thoughts went through my mind, she embarrassed me by screaming into my ear for the entire bus journey, but she's hard of hearing. She asked me question repeatedly, maybe because i wasn't clear enough. She hasn't taken 28 before, she couldn't tell the difference between bus 28 and bus 8, would she be able to cross the road safely. Will any evil soul do harm to her, since she has walking difficulties. Upon weighing, my stop zoomed past. So i decided to send her. She was surprised. Bcos she asked where i stopped, then i told her my stop was over. She raised her voice and said "不要紧，快点下车，回家吃饭！" I could feel the determination in her voice and through her eyes. She attempted to push me off the chair to get down the bus. I resisted. I finally got off with her at the stop near tampines library. I walked her to the traffic junction, she attempted to push me to cross the other side first bcos she knew i don't stay in the direction we were heading. I resisted. I held her hand and brought her to the gate of the home. She kept shoo-ing me off to go home. I waved goodbye and she told me this "我们很有缘，有缘才会见面，有冤你才会回答我，和我说话，谢谢你送物到这里，我们有缘再见吧。" I felt really touched. She kept thanking me and once again told me to catch the flashing green light. I waited with her, till she went into the home. My heart was at peace, was satisfied with myself. Now i do not have to worry about her safety. I did all i can to help her. She may not be able to walk normally, she may not be able to see clearly, she may not be able to hear clearly, therefore she needs help. I still remember her face when we reached the bus stop. She was delighted, she was in a familiar surrounding.She started pointing the market and library to me, as if that was somewhere she stayed for a long time. I guess humans are all like that, we feel more confident and happy in a familiar surrounding.
After this i began to think, what will happen if i'm old, will i be like her? Will the world, my home seem scary to me? will i loose my way home and there is no one to help me? I realised that i made that old lady happy, i gave her the assurance. She was still looking worried throughout the journey. I promised her that we'll go find her home.
I began to think, I did 8 hours of volunteering straight at the library playing with kids, how much did i help anyone at all? Did i even brighten up anyone's life? Although i could see clearly that the kids loved the games and company, but would they be lost and sad if i did not play with them? They half 45mins bus trip with the old lafy was the real volunteerin g i did that day. Not that 8 hours of games. I truly helped someone, that really needs my help desperately, if i didn't help her, she could have been lost at the Tapmines interchange for a night or more. She did not have a handphone nor cash. She only brought along a ez-link card. I'm really glad i were able to help! Now i understand why some people like nicole lee and my senior lyon have such passion for volunteering. It is a mutual thing, it is where you make a real difference in people's lives. Its just the satisfaction from seeing them have a smile on their faces, looking delighted, feeling comfortable.
I really have alot to say about this and I hope the lady is still happy in the lodge. If i go there one day, i must find her and talk to her. She may not remember me, but i do not think she will forget that incident. “这位老婆婆啊，我坚信我们会有缘，有一天一定能再相逢的！”


Haha. i think its quite emo but i really felt that way. haha
Anyway back to more recent stuff. We've got a new ct.
She's our econs tutor too. Lets put it this way, I think she really wants to help me but she does not realise she's stressing me. If the report book remark was written by her, she said i work well under pressure. My piano teacher says it to, i work well under pressure. Maybe its true, but working under pressure requires twice the amount ofr concentration and brain juice. perhaps she just wants to improve my econs grade.Lets hope its like that. But her hw is kinda of overload, 6 essays per fortnight, but i think its way more than that, considering she wants us to refine it. Hmm, i really do hope i can work well under her pressure. I have this secret wish of taking H3 econs, but with an E grade, how is it possible? Maybe i'll work harder for promos, but many many others already have an edge over me. I am ashamed to ask about H3 econs, moreover I still have to take H3 Cll and i think they would clash. But i do not want to drop CLEP. Its something that i want to continue, for my interest in chinese and for the camp i've been to. (第六组 rocks!) maybe i'm just not good enough, i know i'm not an elite, my parents told me so. I'm just a hardworking P6 that got an aggregate to scrap into DHS. I am a failure who had to use all her extra points just to take 4H2. Ohwell, I have to believe then, sounds cliche but true. Jiayou everyone, I have a dream, but my dream is just to achieve my goal.
Going to do EOM, hoping to get A for pw, but can i? I'm just a sucker that scraps everything, its always borderline...
Maybe i'll scrap an A for pw too, just by luck?