这几天掀起了讨论好人与坏人的讨论。 就像悦湾所说的，好人分成两种。“好人”和好人 “NICE” people vs nice people. 我认为以英语表述可更为有意思。第一种“好人”，会到处炫耀他的好， 所以是大字头。但第二种好人都是小字头，因为他们从不炫耀自己有多好，自己怎么被糟蹋，利用。他们所以好，不是因为他们要周遭的人对他们产生好感，人人都称赞他们为好人，心里得意。第一种“好人”渴望的是人们的一声称赞，人们对他们的肯定。他们不顾后果，在有些人面前装模作样，在别人面前却丑态百出。为了得到心目中，长辈、同辈、甚至晚辈的肯定，就装“好人”，心机特别重。但上帝是公平的，上帝有眼，甚至上帝没眼也会认出“好人”与好人。“好人”迟早会遭到拆穿，后果不堪设想。。。
对我而言，“好人”比坏人还坏。因为“好人”的假象会使我们对他们无所防备，所以可能会不知不觉地被他们一再利用。坏人起码已挂了个“坏人”牌在身上，我们有了防备，也不敢乱惹他们的麻烦。
总之，做“好人”，好人、 甚至是坏人都是我们自己作的决定。再多的教诲，全岛与开导也不可能会改变一个坚定的人的立场，只要凭良心，自己过意得去，对得起自己，就行了:D 还记得刘玉英在《台湾龙卷风》说的：“良心知多少？良心一斤值多少钱，菜市场有卖吗？”—可见我们的文明社会已落到了难以挽救的地步。。。
爱<3，
陈嘉慧(:

For the 119 hours I’ve learnt many life and social skills, for the 119 hours I’ve stood till my legs were aching sometimes, for (part of ) the 119 hours that I screamed till my voice became sore, for (some of the) 119 hours where I get AP-ed by customers of the library, for the 119 hours that were significant in my life for the past year, the memories, friends and experience, I’ll never forget. The strengthened bonds within such new friends, the ability to just talk about anything and as friends although you all are really seniors and working professionals whom I dearly respect!
Friday was the Friends of the Library Appreciation Ceremony with the theme of MAGIC! Haha. Due to econs exam in the afternoon >,< I couldn’t dress up for the occasion or something, so I just went in sch based tee haha. “You are the Magic in our lives!” was the slogan for the night and it started with obviously crap conversations with Charmaine and Kristof, 2 very very good friends I’ve made through fol-ing. Kristof really makes ridiculous comments that make you literally rofl and I guess his nature makes him very sociable and well-known haha. Then was speeches by some library branch managers, so honoured to be specially mentioned by Valerie, from Marine Parade library :p She was an officer that I always saw and I realized we could communicate well hahaha :D I saw Mdm Heng too, branch manager of Pasir Ris library. Haha I must thank her too, she is always very grateful to all fols at PRPL and always takes care of our welfare very well! She will just make sure we don’t over-tire and sometimes uses her funds to treat us too :D hehe. So glad that she recognized me and we chatted for a while haha she said I don’t appear so often le lol (inner thoughts: if no a level I will appear every week kind haha) Took a photo with her. Aft that was some story telling, quite cool :D Actually I think Serenne, Azi and the whole team took much effort to plan this thing for us :D Really appreciate them for being so nice and caring too! Honestly speaking, although the food, atmosphere does make a difference, the most important and enjoyable thing to me in the party was to interacte, and to enjoy the company  Usually even if we volunteer together, we can’t keep chatting so conversations were limited. Only through this party can we chat non-stop, even all the way home! I chatted with Angeline the most I think. Although she’s already a teacher but we still can chat like friends. I’m super comfortable with her and I just share my troubles while she shares hers too  She inspires me to do my best in life and not to stress myself up and even gave me ideas on internship and higher education lol. I saw several other elders whom I respect but treat me as friends and some of them even take care of me oops haha but I do repay their kindness by also taking an extra bottle of water for them, ask if they’re okay if they stood for a few hours… Reflecting on what Ms Tay (some director of public libraries) said, I was abit offended when she said elderly volunteers were more steady and frequent while youth volunteers tend to be more inconsistent in their duties. I felt offended because we are youths, students with many other commitments so we cannot be there to help them all the time, especially during school terms. As for me only, I make sure I don’t boycott any duties I’ve signed up for. If its last minute, I’ll try my best to inform Serenne, through sms. So although I agree we are less frequent and tend to appear only during term breaks, we still (or at least most of us) take pride in our duty and do it to the best of our abilities. Oh well, 自己不心虚就好:p
Recalling the many events I’ve participated in, no doubt I still enjoy large events, especially those held at the plaza at NLB, but Pasir Ris Library has also given me much memories :D Large events include Asian Children Festival (its still the best :D), book exchange,… These events let me make new friends, both young and old, as well as improve my “customer-service” skills, although job scope may be seen as mere “saikang” sometimes, such as collecting baskets, through the day, you realize your job scope includes getting baskets for people, answering different enquiries, directing the patrons to the start of queue, directing people to the different sections of books… Other jobs such as registration of certain activities were obviously more service oriented which tested my ability to adapt to situations and to tackle some customers that were not very patient. Asian Children Festival 2009 was the most memorable one. I was first supposed to guide the oh-so-long queue for tickets for the free workshops, (I thought hehe not bad :p), then my job scope increased to making sure that they were in the right queues which then automatically included explaining how the entire ACF works and what they’re supposed to do throughout the day. Then some discontentment among parents whol couldn’t get tickets arose, then I was told to take down the number of people and required tickets in the queue so that they wouldn’t be queueing up for nothing. Ahaha. This is the really tricky part. When you reach 20pax, then (inner thoughts: ohno how to reject the next person, sure scream at me one >.<) you tactfully and politely say that there are 20 ppl in front of you so I’m afraid your child may not get to participate in the workshop. *crosses fingers* hopes for the best. Responses( from mild to ridiculous) : huh like that also can ar? Anyway thanks for telling me if not I queue for 2 hours for nothing/ oh okay lorh, baby, they say cannot then cannot lorh/ what?! I queue for 1 hour already then you tell me no more space *&%^$@!%^&/what kind of orgranisation is it? Your planning so poor ar?/ I am very unhappy, first you tell me this one need to queue, queue already say no more, just now also like that, I am very very unhappy (in ascending tone) /&*^%$#@#@$%^!!!! Hahaha yup that’s about all. But the worst is when someone starts complaining to me, then ppl around that person starts joining in, and 我只能任由他们骂=.= Before the event, I told myself to stop using “I’m just a volunteer” as an excuse. Actually during briefing the officers told us just say “I’m just a volunteer” when the customers get unhappy hahaha. But I wanted a breakthrough, I couldn’t always rely on that excuse mah lol. Although throughout the day, I got scolded like 80% of the time when politely informing them that the slots are filled up, we need to see your child before we can issue tickets, you can only start queueing one hour before (change to we can’t control when you want to queue but we can only issue 1 hour before). It was really an experience, being on your feet from 830 to 7 and enduring ridiculous remarks and blah blah blah hmmm but somehow I felt that I’ve learnt a lot. A lot in terms of people skills, how to appease them and not enrage them further, how to settle such situations with a smile without losing my cool, how to not always depend on the really busy officers, and many many more! I almost broke down once, when they all surrounded me and started screaming. :o To think of it, it could have looked hilarious, like 5 aunties and uncles surrounding 1 poor 17 year old volunteer and screaming. But as I told myself to keep calm and Serenne came to my rescue, I became much stronger after that :D Was actually proud of myself :D
Book exchange 2009 was cool too. I held the “Please Queue Here” board all the way up, hands were tired sore but quite fun hahaaha. The librarians at the back of the queue all showered my with auntily-love :D
Other very enjoyable/memorable events included the talks and seminas organized by Ms Athena and Ms Huda. The best was that day spent as Ms Athena’s assistant for 2 events consecutively :D I doubled/tripled/quadrupled as registration/feedback form/helper giving out tokens of appreciation to goh/entertaining SPI speakers and helping them set up while waiting for participants to come back from their trail….. Learnt a lot through that too :D
Pasir Ris Library is still my favourite community library to volunteer at. The staff are all so friendly and there is where I found my close friends in fol, namely Charmaine, Jing Yi and Angeline, not to forget Deyi too :D One of the most memorable was the dino mascot, where we drenched in each others’ sweat and I meet Xin Ee ((:
I have really gained much from FOL and will definitely give back when I have the chance! :D Thank you all my FOL-mates and support from everyone (family for not blaming me sometimes when I sacrficice some family time, PW grp when sometimes we couldn’t have meeting cos I wanted to go FOL, FOL mates for making the sessions so enjoyable and me wanting to volunteer more, friends from sch whom I may have neglected, studies when I forsake you and go FOL hehe…) These memories will last and be etched in my mind as part of JC life :D